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Tyler James Hurley... :)

2012-03-11T07:54:00.015-07:00

Tyler,

You're one of the best things that happened to me in the US...

It was nice to finally having the chance to talk to you, laugh with you, be with you...

You loved country music, you watched Naruto, you can sing rap, you surely have the voice for country songs and could take over Josh Turner's , you dance when your drinking, you play ps3 a lot, you love motocross, you sleep talk, you don't really snore, you like driving in the snow, you love your wagovan eventhough it breaks down some times, you're only 24 but you act like 27, you're a responsible drinker, you complain on your back/shoulder a lot but never really got the massage you needed, you never smoked, you have broken a lot of bones (lol), you like to snowboard, which you haven't done recently, you used to skateboard too, you drink water a lot, you don't like soda, you like sour stuff, you like candies, you hate Accenture (haha), you like java, you wanted to become a java programmer but you ended up as sysadmin in Acn, you hate performance ratings, you love your family, you love the countryside, you like driving in the country, you like the beach too, you prefer soft, chewy chocolate chip cookie rather than crunchy, you eat anything, top food choice - momma's cooking (lol); you don't like hot/too spicy food, and indian food is not one of your top food choices, you think filipino food is weird too, lol; you're a gentleman - perhaps, a country guy's nature, you do look like a ghost when you're badly sick, you're worst sickness ever is always on stomach and you hate it; you don't have a girlfriend and you say those crap isn't for you, and that you're no fun, which I don't believe so; you like color blue, but there's one particular long sleeve red checkered polo that you wear a lot, you're a geek when you were a kid, wearing those huge glasses while growing up, so cute; you had a longer curly hair before and you looked damn hot, figured if I'd be an ECU student back your time, I'd be stalking you around, lol; don't get me wrong, as I've said before, you still look good with your short (almost gone) hair, wondering how you look like if you're bald (haha); you don't drink coffee, you watched twilight movies (even if you don't admit, lol), I'm sure you'd see the last part too, haha; you don't wear black slacks in the office, you wear khaki ones, checkered long sleeve shirts suit you too well, so country; you listen to different music, and you know a lot of lyrics, you like sweet stuff too; your bathroom is so clean and organized - speaks a lot about you; you like your mom's gift - and you use it a lot (air filter), puts you to sleep (and works for me too! lol); you have a fushia pink lava lamp and kept it for yearssss, haha; you grew up eating hotdogs and burgers (wish I had the chance to make burgers for you); you like wild, dangerous sports; you paint, you're an artist; you try to gain weight, you go to the gym too; you've gotten a lot better in darts, never had the chance to beat your a**; you picked thousands of eggs in the morning at your father's chicken house (lol); money isn't a big deal for you, you're a simple nice guy; you're a good brother, a good son...

I'm glad to have had the opportunity to know more of you, other than the quiet techy guy in the office. :)

I know we said we'd just be friends, and I know we were just friends. But some things went wrong, and we stopped talking to each other.

I don't want to know what happened, nor do I want to know why things happened. I just know, it had to happen, maybe. Before things got worse. Got more. I don't know.

I'll keep the memories I have about you, and this photo right here, is so you...a guy who likes to sleep a lot. Who won't get up from bed until like 30mins before 9am for work. A guy who'd look this way, looking so lovely, sleeping beside me, while I would be silently be moving when I'm awaken by sunlight in the morning.

Honestly, you're the loveliest sight I've ever seen in the morning. Ever.

I specifically love your suthern accent, the 'ya know what im sayin'...haha..the 'twangs'... it sounds sexy... :)

Too short time to say, but I liked the Tyler Hurley I've met, and been spending time with for the past few months...

I'd tell you something I didn't like - you didn't want to take a picture with me last Supercross event - did that just scare you a lot? That a photo with me, would mean keeping memories of us? That doing it, would crossthe barrier that you've set to becoming more than friends? That's just stupid, its just a picture.Did you despise the thought of being with me that much? I hated you that time, you just ruined my night you know. :-/

It's gonna be just less than a year, and I'd leave the country.
I know as I'd leave, a portion of my heart will remain in North Carolina...

Take care of yourself Tyl, be the good man that you are now, and be better.

Find love, and have fun.

Till then. See yah.

Nice Phrase =)

2012-01-29T19:48:00.001-08:00

“Then, one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life… you give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore.”

No One's Perfect

2012-01-29T05:05:00.001-08:00

Certainly, no one can ever be perfect to someone else's eyes. But I know there's someone up there, who sees the real me, who doesn't look for the perfect me, as I'm already perfect enough for Him. Whatever I lack, that makes up the real me. And He doesn't judge me.

Words been said.. and they hurt.

2012-01-29T04:52:00.000-08:00

I've been crying on this for awhile... a week.
I really can't tell anymore why..and how... as I just don't want to remember it...

But I now acknowledge, that, even though you have your family... at some point you are still strangers to one another. What more if you weren't together for 17years?

Words been said. And they hurt. Deeply.

I was on my way home driving from Holly Springs, and I started crying while on the highway - that's not safe. Driving in the highway, disoriented, is a no-no.
I'm away from friends, not a single person I can actually talk to about this for the past week, that I had to just keep it inside.
That crying is my only way out. :(

I hate being depressed. Well except for some major relationship breakups or whatever.

But family-wise, it never occurred to me.

To give just a little idea, suddenly, I became the bad child.
I became someone without respect to parents.
That sucks.

One of my closest friends told me...
"just move on from it Cloud, it will do you no good to dwell on it, you know, we know, you're not even close to being a bad child"...

My father texted me... saying my mother is now okay, and that they didn't mean it saying those.. and saying we must forgive and forget, both ways. I said, yeah, I'm fine about it. It's just that words been said and they really hurt. Just give me a little space for now, I just need to heal.

I know I should keep that space short.
I should be fine sooner.

My parents (grandparents) are old.
I should not give them any burden like this.
And I love them.

Hope it'll be over soon.

*Yeah, I'm pertaining to my Nanang and Tatang in Florida, which are my biological grandparents... But I've grown up acknowledging them as my parents. :)

Sunday Plans!

2012-01-29T04:45:00.000-08:00

I'll be off for Mass @ 9:30am... then pick up some things at Food Lion supermarket..
Be home by 11... start cooking pancit for lunch (pinoy noodles)... then watch Supercross at CBSSports - online at 12noon!

Yeah - I miss the days when I could actually see motocross races live back in Ilocos and even Abra. I know some of my highschool mates are now crazy about it, and are doing races nowadays at my home province. Be safe guys!

Breakfast in a moment - then time to prep for church!

Happy Sunday!

5th Year....

2012-01-29T04:37:00.001-08:00

It's my 5th year with Accenture today...

Time for some self check:

Any plans to resign soon? - None.
Ever been promoted for the past 5years? - Twice.
Onshore? - Yes
Performance Rating? - Still Good. :P
Satisfied with Income? - Yes

Alright... another 5 years. LOL

...the sad heart...

2010-12-17T13:09:00.001-08:00

it's hard to pretend that you do not care...when in fact you mostly do. :(

New Banana Republic Model

2009-12-28T03:35:00.001-08:00

Family Visit... Dec 09

2009-12-28T03:29:00.000-08:00

Back to straigh hair...??? hmmm

2009-12-28T03:17:00.000-08:00

Tagaytay Trip w/ the Team Sept 09

2009-12-28T03:03:00.000-08:00

Ilocos Trip 09

2009-12-27T20:56:00.000-08:00

Bohol Trip 09

2009-12-27T20:44:00.000-08:00

Updated Version of me...

2009-09-08T10:45:00.000-07:00

Here's one song, na recently ko lang narinig, in fact once pa lang.. :) Pero recommended ng bestfriend ko, parang OST raw ng buhay ko..haha..
So today, I decided to check out the lyrics... then narealize ko... yeah, it could be the official sound track of my life... why? Hmmm...basta. :)

I know I can be so awkward at times
I can be insecure
You can call me naive, you can say I'm a child
You can say I'm so immature
For me to say that I love you now
But you'll see I will prove somehow
I can be so much more

Someday there's gonna be
An updated version of me
And somehow you're gonna see
An udpated version of me

And there would be no reasons then
To tell me that I'm just a friend
I'll be a much better person, you'll see
An updated version of me

Maybe I should grow a much nicer nose
A much prettier set of eyes
Maybe I should wear more colorful clothes
If it'd help you to realize
I've never been this in love before
Never wanted to change at all
Now I'm willing to try...

Someday there's gonna be
An updated version of me
And somehow you're gonna see
An updated version of me
And there would be no reasons then
To tell me that I'm just a friend
I'll be a much better person, you'll see
An updated version of me...

Maybe then you'd realize
Or maybe you won't
If and when that happens
I'd still be the lucky one...

'Coz someday there's gonna be
An updated version of me
And somehow you're gonna see
And updated version of me
And someday you would realize
You've made awful compromise
And you'd wished that you had wath you missed
'Coz you'd miss a much better person
An updated version of me
You will see...

My 1st Wedding Planner moment..hehe.

2009-08-21T18:52:00.000-07:00

16 months from now, will be Patrick and Mona's wedding... and they chose me to be their wedding planner.. OMG! A dream task! :P

Other than taking photos, cooking, this is one thing I've wished I can do, and thanks to Pareng Pat and Mona as they've decided to entrust to me this big BIG wedding planning event! :)

I still remember that movie of Claudine Barretto and the cute late Rico Yan, 'Got To Believe', where Clau played the role of a wedding coordinator, while Rico played as wedding photographer.

Heck, I'm not saying I'd end up with a wedding photographer, but who knows my future prince would meet me during those wedding events I'd be into! haha! As if it's really my career - wherein this is just my first time, hehe....
And... prince??? Nah, there's only one prince I considered before, actually, he's a king now, but he's gone. LOL.

Back to wedding preps --- I'd officially start this on October! :)

First step --- Read Read Read and Read! (about wedding planning!)
Second step --- Checklist Checklist Checklist and Checklist!

and so forth....

For now, puro excitement muna ko, hehehe! :P

Back to real life muna --- Accenture employee, huhu!

Thank you.. Chavez.

2009-08-21T16:40:00.000-07:00

Strange... but it's almost 4 months, since Marlon and I parted ways.

Yes - we've broken up... just as how other relationships were, it wasn't an easy break up.

The relationship could have been a fast, short one, but still the same, both of us were hurt... both of us hoped that it didn't happen, wished it worked.

Sometimes, in life, we just really have to accept the fact that even if we try too much to make something work out --- it just can't. :(

Perfect example is my relationship with Marlon.

It was a very quick relationship, founded in mere admiration and likeness of each other, both were blinded of what we thought was 'love', but only to find out --- it's not yet "it".

It hurts to know that the person you care so much, couldn't care less where you're not around.

It saddens to know, that the person whose name is the first that you can think of upon waking up, cannot think of you unless you make yourself visible to that person...
Visible in such a way that it would take a text or call for that person to be reminded that 'you're there'...

It pains to know that you're the last in that person's priorities...

It hurts more to know, that the person you thought meant the word 'i love you', didn't honestly mean it all this time...

I'm sorry.

We shouldn't have taken this path that soon...we could've waited till the feelings could grow deeper, before taking it to a higher level.

I know we tried. I did try. I wanted to try more.

But there are reasons, reasons I know, and you know --- why we were not able to try more.

I thought, we could be friends after, then start on the right ground.
But sometimes, it makes it hard to fulfill something, when people around you affects you - worse, you let them take over you.

It takes much for a relationship to survive, when people around you, disagrees into it. From the start of the relationship, they aren't in favor of us. It could have been fruitful, if they were just wishing us to be happy in the end.

But I also couldn't blame them. Perhaps, we can't really see what other people see in us.

They could be right. They could be wrong.

But even if this has ended, always remember, I cared, and will always care.
I did love you, could be not that much yet, but I know, in my heart, and in my own ways, I did love you.

Second chances? I don't know. I'm not closing doors. But I'm not keeping hopes.
You're free now. Find your happiness, I'll find mine.

And, thank you. Thank you for a lot of things.
Thank you for the happy moments.
You made me a better a person, you might not know it, but you did.
There's a part of me that was healed, because of you.

Thank you.
Chavez.

...fallen'...

2009-03-24T08:46:00.000-07:00

What is this I'm feelin'
I just can't explain
When you're near
I'm just not the same
I'm tryin' to hide it
Try not to show it
It's crazy
How could it be

I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in
And I'm fallen in love
I finally know how it feels

When you said hello
I looked in your eyes
Suddenly, I felt good inside
Is this really happenin'
Or am I just dreaming
I guess, it's true
I can't believe

I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in
And I'm fallen in love
I finally know how it feels
So this is love

Doesn't matter where I am
Thoughts of you still linger in my mind
No matter what time of day
I've really, really
Fallen for you

I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in
And I'm fallen in love
I finally know how it feels
I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in
And I'm fallen in love
I finally know how it feels
So this is love

....this is the song I've started to be playing repeatedly ... when YOU've started being around...

...isn't it strange...we used to be in the same project.. yet we never got any chance to really talk and get to know each other.. and now, we're here...

...i know, we've just started being together... there are challenges around, challenges to come... and even challenges of the past...but hopefully, we could remain strong... and whatever it is that has happened before, please let's not allow it to get in between us... let's not risk our relationship to suffer, because of it.. coz if you, would allow such to happen, I want you to know, I won't...

...i love you Chavez... we have months... hopefully years.. to know more about each other... trust, cherish, and care for one another...and I, especially, this is my chance to prove to you na mahal kita.. and to erase those doubts, fears that you have inside...

baby eeyore....

2009-03-22T18:36:00.001-07:00

Feb 15...

Baby Eeyore was given by Marlon...with a card.. message written below...

Hi Angel,
Here's something to keep you company at night.. Eeyore!! He's my fave Winnie the Pooh character. I felt that we shared a lot of things in common. He even looks like me. :)
But I think I'm a lot happier than he is now...
Happy monthsary Baby....
Many more to come...mwah...
- Marlon-

Whew... never really thought that he watched Winnie The Pooh before... he never mentioned that to me.. nor gave any comments on my being a pooh addict... :)
Was surprised ...sobra... didn't know he was into it as well...
I love it.. i love eeyore..and i love Marlon..

Thanks babe.. sure this would really keep me company every night --err day, I guess. (nightshift eh, hehe... ) :P

baby eeyore....

2009-03-22T18:36:00.000-07:00

1st Monthsary - 031509

2009-03-16T01:17:00.001-07:00

Bowling Challenge (Supposedly Ice Skating lessons, hehe, kaso late ever si Chavez!)

- our shoes! size 8 and size 9.5

- Marlon #15

- happy monthsary! :)

- it's our day, 15!

- err...it's our night pala, 15! hehe
cloudz -- loser! :P

- since talo, mgpapacute n lng, hehe..
- porma..
- billiards challenge nmn...
-- prize ng talo, huggg...hehe..
- o anu, challenge Chavez?

- 15 -

- babe and croc!
- dinner at Krocodile Grille, Shang...
- siga ka chavez ah... :)

- i love thee.. :)

- kaya nmn pala late, hehe.. namili ng gifts..
- sorry tulip? hehe... ending the night of 15.. :)

... so loved the night... thanks for a wonderful evening babe.. i love you..
..happy monthsary..

-me and my baby-

2009-03-16T00:39:00.000-07:00

February 07 - Fhatz/Lei's Birthday

February 13 - Pre-Valentines

February 14 - Valentine's Date

For the drinks - 4 Seasons and Watermelon Shakes

For the meal - Lasagna and...uhh forgot! :P

For the couple - Marlon and Cloudz

Comments: Forgot to deliver his water twice! :P

Marlon lost in basketball shooting: 19 : 33 (yipee!)

He sucked in Time Crisis 2! hehe...

Finally... February 15 - Officially, Marlon and Cloudy together... :P

2009 - New Life! New Love!

2009-03-15T20:57:00.000-07:00

Who could ever think, that Marlon Chavez and I could end up together?

Flashback...

April 2007 - Met this silent, English speaking, Amboy (not that he's half American, but because he was raised in the states), Atenista guy in our project. Never really got to talk to him, aside from hi, and hello's; perhaps one or two conversations that lasted for one or two minutes as well, during the entire 5months of stay in our project.

August 2007 - Antipolo Team Building. He said, before going through the 'skyride' (mini version), "I'm sorry Cloudy, but I have loved you ever since". (Hmmm surely that was just a joke. And due to peer pressure around.. :P )

December 2007 - Ariba Top Model pictorial session. We were both participants for the quest for Ariba Top Model. We were having a photoshoot - and he joined me in one of the shots! Kinda like - nanliligaw themed photo.

December 8, 2008 - Ariba Christmas Party 08. Marlon was the vocalist of the Safety in Silence band, from the Ariba 5th floor. Got one picture taken with him though. :) After the party, we were together at PHI Bar, my first time to really be with him in such place - but we never really talked, nor danced. There was just a little conversation of "hi"and "hello's" and "how are you's".

December 21, 2008 - Mona/Allan/Anna's birthday/ Keysi's fly home treat... Marlon came. He sat beside me. It was the longest conversation ever with him. And he got drunk ---with three and a half bottle of redhorse! :P hehe... loser drinker. I drunk, what, 2 bottles of San Mig Light, 4 bottles of Red Horse, and a glass of Margarita that night, and I was able to take care of him while he was bangag. I even accompanied him to the rest room, argh! First time going inside a men's room, and I'm so glad, I'm a woman! hahaha... I was supposed to leave for Baguio that midnight, but since I was taking care of him, I was hesitant to leave, so I stayed.
We went to Starbucks after, for people to be a li'l awake, drink a cup of coffee. I treated him for coffee, as he's no longer able to take his wallet out. :P Poor kid, hehe. Ended the night, err- morning, sending him home through a taxi, with a kiss on the cheek. (Ops! I don't know know where did that come from! :P )
I texted him to take care. And he texted me back, when he got home. :)

December 24, 2008 - He dropped by sa office to give me Hershey's chocolates, with a letter - written in a Starbucks tissue. Hmm, creative, hehe.

2009.....

February 14 - Jump na tayo agad sa February, hehe. Tinatamad na ako mgkwento eh, but there - he invited me out on a date. Dinner at Italianni's, played sa Timezone, met up with Mona and Pat, then went to Metrowalk....

....then....

February 15 - Kami na! :P hahaha....

uso pa ba ang blog???

2009-03-15T20:49:00.000-07:00

It's really been a while since I last posted dito sa blog n to, ang tanong, "uso pa ba ang blog?" haha...
There's the long running friendster, then multiply, then now, Facebook.... my friends say, ako na lng daw ang walang Facebook sa Pilipinas...

Hindi naman siguro di ba? :P

But anyway, ayan I created a Facebook account, pero super bare, and empty pa sya..hehe. Account pa lng, with 1 album, pati nga profile, di pa kumpleto eh, hehe...

Anu pa nga kaya ang silbi ng blog na to?
I guess, gagawin ko na lng diary - online library, hehe. :)

Kahit feeling ko, wala ng audience to, eh, oks n rin, at least time to time, I'll have something to go back to, pag gusto kong magflashback sa mga nangyari sa kin noon di ba...

I can be the sole audience of my own blog - who cares?!?

anu nang balita sa kin...?

2008-10-20T03:51:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since I last posted in this blog...bakit nga kaya? Dati, halos araw araw... ngpopost ako..hehe. :)
Noticed the pattern? If I'm at the state of broken hearted...dami ko napopost..hahaha...

I tend to turn this blog into a diary... nagiging bestfriend ko...

Lahat ng sama ng loob ko... lahat ng insights ko, dito ko sinasabi.. :)

Anu nga bang bago sa kin..

Hmmm...

Past track tayo...

June 14-15 - La Union - Vigan trip with Mona, RA and Sho.. We went to Mona's relatives in La Union, had some swimming at the beach... played a litttle basketball at the camp...then toured around Vigan.. :)

June - Early August - WABL Season. My team Balleras reaching the semis, and of course, Gold Diggers, winning the league. Congrats!

August 30-31 - GD Laguna Outing: Championship celebration. The resort was sponsored by Lois, drinks by Coach Dale, the rest were contributed by everybody. I had a breakdown during the outing... why? Secret, I was just so down... was sooo hurt... that I turned to drinking a lot of alcohol.. smoking.. I just needed an outlet. After the outing, I felt a little better, being able to pour things out... :)

September - Things were a little smoother for me...any event? uhmmmm...

September 06 - JPMC Teambuilding held at Viktoria Court, Pasig. First time in a motel! haha.. :)

October - 11 - Level1 and Level2 Teams 2nd yr Anniversary held at A-Venue Hotel... grabe, lasing ako! At first time kong magtanggera, hehe... :)

October 16-19 - Bora Trip with Sho... my most awaited trip..haha. Really a dream come true for me... Thanks for Sho for coming as well.. at DRAWING ang dapat eh original kasama ko sa Bora.. pero ayos lang.. was real fun, and really memorable.. :) At least, may kasama akong kaibigan dun..haha. A total adventure.. great experience! First time sa Bora, First time sumakay ng airplane, First time ma-Stranded sa airport at magchance passenger sa ibang airline...Salamat Seair,hehe..:)

JPMC Zambales Trip

2008-07-06T17:24:00.000-07:00

The project had it's second summer outing @ Canoe Beach Resort.. last May 31- June 01. It was really great... though Bataan White Coral Beach Resort is incomparable to it's beauty and amenities... the surrounding islands compensated it all... as well as the great sunset.

Here are some pics for your viewing... :)

...right now...

2008-07-06T16:45:00.000-07:00

...this is cloudz' life...

1. Woke up great!
2. Had a great weekend.
3. I'm lying on my bed..nakadapa.. :)
4. My laptop's on infront of me.
5. Chatting with friends @ ym. Friendster/Blog/eMail are all open.
6. Watching Grey's season 2.
7. My self-prepared longganisa-hotdog-egg-rice breakfast is currently waiting for me to eat it!!! :)
8. No work till 8pm .
9. Thinking if should I go out any time today...
10. Love this!

<-Magleo Siblings->

2008-06-29T18:01:00.001-07:00

You guys might be wondering, Magleo is a last name, I was supposed to have had... But I'm not saying I don't want where I am right now.. and especially who I am...I'm so happy and thankful with my life right now, the family I've been with... I'm sooo proud of them and love them so much..

But I'm just so glad... that I've still got other family out there...

Ooooppss, won't give you much details..hehehe...

It's my second time seeing them, first time was, 8yrs ago??? And they're big now... and I sooo love being their Ate... I'm looking forward to spending more time with them....

... with Arjhee (17) and RR (12)...

...mga pogi kong kapatid, mana sa ate, hehe.. :)

...Magleo Siblings,,reunited..

...Arjhee.. sisters alike.. :)

...our bunso.. RR.. mwahhhh!!!

namiss ko mgBLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

2008-06-29T17:57:00.000-07:00

grabe, ang tagal na ng last post ko...uhm, last pics uploaded, bataan trip??? whoaaa...
I've been to Pangasinan, to Baguio, to Zambales, to La Union and Vigan ...yet, Bataan pa lng ung huli, hahaha...

busy busyhan???? senxa naman, dayshift kasi ako, at tsaka midshift... ayan tuloy...di ako nkakapagnet masyado, hihihi...

tsaka WABL time na kasi, my practices... tas laging pagod, bagsak pagkauwi, hehe.. :D

now i'm back!!! ;)

Bataan Trip - Ariba Summer Outing '08

2008-05-04T04:38:00.000-07:00

Just this afternoon, we arrived from our summer outing at White Corals Beach Resort -Morong, Bataan. It was quite a long trip, almost 6 hrs on the road, and a very late lunch, but heck - we had so much fun during the outing!!!

For starters, here are the photos taken from the outing... that's divided in 4 parts:

1. Departure

2. Day 1 - Arrival/Team Games/Pictorial

3. Day 2 - Swimming/Pictorial

4. Cloudz' & Ryan's Pictorial @ White Corals, Bataan

Ang itim ko na , hahaha... though dati nmn na akong morena, nangitim lng lalo, hehe.. :D

Hay, sarap ng summer.... i want mooooorrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeee.. :)

Di bale, Zambales trip is next for the JPMC outing on May 31- June 1... hehehe.. :P

bru!!! darating ka na, missed you much!!! ;p

2008-04-16T19:23:00.001-07:00

...hmm? si kAykAy? that's how she likes her name spelled.. hehe. bitch yan eh, tulad ko, pero worse yan..haha... :P
...almost one yr na yang onshore sa NJ, before she left, di pa kami close... we were just 'feeling' close. but heck, distance wasn't a hindrance to build a great friendship... love na love ko tong malditang to, hehe...
...ayan, uuwi ka na, haba ng to-do list natin... to count, metrowalk gimik, EK, adopt-a-cloud sa inyo, spa, satc, when love begins movie, bora, anvaya, ilocos-abra tour, xocolat, sbux, jabee treats, calaruega/tagaytay trip, etc etc etc.....
...ngcocountdown na kami sa pagdating mo bru, what, 10 days???? hehehe.. umuwi ka na kAykAy...
...yngatz ka dyan... ung T2-baby ko, iuwi mo ha.. ahahaha... :D

preparing for summer??? hehe...

2008-04-16T19:19:00.001-07:00

hmmm..new boyfwend???o kaagaw???

2008-04-16T19:10:00.000-07:00

...haha more of kaagaw nga eh, hehehe.. tama ba? karibal ko pla tong taong to??? agawan p ko sa prinsepe ko? ahahaha.. astig magtripz noh, kunyare kami na ni Ercia... naconvert ko sya, pra bumalik sa reality.. hehe.. :P

...here's another pic.. kaming lahat, si nanah-ryan, si roslyn-joy, at ercia-cloudz... we were in cavite that time... family outing nina joy, hehe... nice noh, 3-couples... ahaha.. :D be sharing more pics next time, antok n ko.. :P

bleeding in love..

2008-04-16T19:05:00.000-07:00

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

...fairy tales...

2008-03-20T17:52:00.000-07:00

Did you ever believe in fairy tales... the existence of a true royal palace.. the princes and princesses.. the knights in shining armor.. true love?

Believing in fairy tales... is like believing in magic... in possibilities...

That a frog turns into prince...

That behind the beast, is a perfect knight...

That sleeping beauty wakes up 'coz of the true love's kiss...

That cinderella, a poor, simple girl... would be loved by the prince...

Perhaps, these are all true.. these can all happen.

But they doesn't happen just merely being offered infront of you, free for your grabbing...

You've got to do your part, recognize opportunities... take chances.

If it's all you've got, to make your dream come true, then do it. It won't matter how high and mighty it would be...

Enough of the uncertainties.. of the insecurities... enough of pessimisms...

This chance, comes only once... well perhaps, a second once has come along.

And this time, make sure you do it better... Make sure you show it... Whatever it takes, just prove it... that, it can be true... it can be possible.

Don't let it to just pass... Keep it... Fight for it...

while I'm sick...

2008-03-20T02:26:00.000-07:00

Just about an hour ago, while I was there lying in my bed.. waiting for my fever to cool down.. I had a little discussion with my mind.. which goes..

This year.. 2008..
I would've moved out from our place.. SOON!
I wanna play... basketball!
I wanna go to... Bora!
I wanna buy a...cybershot T2 cam, green one!
I wanna eat at.. Le Souffle, The Fort... or Queens @ Jupiter... :)
I wanna maintain the weight of... 118 lbs...
I wanna do better at work..
Plans on having a boyfriend? ...bakit, may nanliligaw ba???
Fall in love?.. I guess..
Get married?.. big NO!

Next year..2009
I wanna go out of the country... first thing on yr 2009! =) Anywhere, as long as OUT!
I wanna visit the prison, hahaha.
I wanna learn.. a new sport..
I wanna undergo the .. Ariba Bootcamp Training.. hehe!
Sana maging Shift Lead na, hahaha..
Planning for my parents' Golden Wedding Anniversary.. (gastos! hehe)
Spend Christmas.... with someone special. (whoever!)
...more more more...

On the year..2010.
Turning 25 that year.. tanda na, haha.. =)
Dreaming for a car, probably.. or a condo? hahaha . Asa!
Marriage plans? Uhm, No Idea..
Single pa? Probably. hahaha.

Hahaha, whatever is listed above... who knows what will happen?
Just enjoy dear, don't rush into things... let them come in time, come in the right time.. =)

my littel angels.. with tita-ninang.. =)

2008-03-15T22:43:00.000-07:00

2008-03-10T23:20:00.000-07:00

I don't know if I'm angry...
Unsure if it's bitterness...
Or a little mad...
At least I know I'm hurting...

I thought you are who you are...
I thought you'll be there as you told me so.

I hoped, I wished...
That it will be you, who'll just be there.

But you left me out,
Left me behind...
You choose to stay away,
Preferred to leave my way.

Why did it turn out this way,
Why did it turn out,
To be you,
Against I.

I'm not good with words.
Nor with poems.
But I hope this simple message would...
Let you know how I feel.

I'm sorry I might've hurt you.
It's just me trying to stand on my own.

Just a smile. Perhaps just one more smile.

Be enough to keep me believe,

That after all this,

We are still who we were...

Bestfriends.

Dear Ai Lin

2008-03-10T10:10:00.000-07:00

Dear Ai Lin,

You turned out to be a stranger, perhaps, as well as I to you. I'm sorry, I didn't intend nor wanted so. I just don't know, if I still have you. You were the person, I thought who'll be just right there. Not always - but at least, at most times. I don't blame you, I know it was my fault. I started it.

I moved away, as it was hard for me. I thought you'll understand, I thought you'll be the first one to understand. I wasn't being childish. I was just looking for a defense from my side. As I can depend on no one but myself. And it was the only possible way I know, I can, and I did.

I miss you, I don't know if you miss too. Or if you still recognize me. Been hurting much, not anymore from the relationship I've been, but for losing the bestfriend I thought I had.

I can be quite okay now, as I have other people around me. People who had been making me happy, making me feel that I'm not on my own.. And that been so busy, that I'd likely withdraw from loneliness.

But at times, I feel so empty, so alone... All I hear was silence... As all I wanted to hear was you. I tend to look for you on the crowd, I always wish that you're around...

I've had a lot of questions on my mind - all what is.. why is...as well as what if's... I don't know if I can find answers, I also don't know, if I want them... =(

Just for now, I hope you're okay. Be always okay, as that's what I've always wanted you to be. And be happy. I'll just be here, perhaps you can't feel me, I can't you feel you too. I'm so afraid, I might get used to, and you as well. But I know, in my heart, you'll just be in there.

I know. I'm sure.

Love,
Ai Quan

Message.. for Ai Lin..

2008-03-10T09:35:00.000-07:00

You used to be my friend, actually my bestfriend...
You might not know, everytime I see you around,
I long to say 'hi', to give you a kiss, a hug...

I miss my sister, I miss the person,
I've trusted everything with...

I don't know how things happened,
I don't know how it ended...
But in my heart, it hasn't...
As my heart always whispers your name,
when you're behind me, infront....
or when you're afar...

I gave you reasons, why I can't get near,
I had to kept distant,
Coz' I can't get near yet..
As you're with ---..
It's the only way I know,
To help me move on,
To help me get over pain..
To help me forget..
As I can't depend to anyone,
But only to myself.
I thought it's my own way.
And I know it worked.

But you never gave me any reason,
Why can't you get close as well...
You choose,
To stay away, if I stay away..

Perhaps, I hoped too much..
That if I can't come near...
You will...

You speak, only when I speak...
You reply, only when I send you one.

Been tired reaching out,
Been tired trying much...
To say 'hello'...
Only to get a cold 'hi'...
Or a simple nod...

I miss our coffee times,
our shopping moments,
our hopefully-be-repeated-martini-night...
I miss sleeping, cuddling beside you in the bed..
I miss you waking me up, hugging me..
As I do the same on you..

I miss us buying stuffs alike,
I miss showing you approval or dislike 'signs' to anything I see around...
I miss our secret 'complains' or 'panlalaits' around...
I miss our silly bets...
I miss our simple chat..
I miss simply saying goodmorning...
I miss calling you my 'kapatid...

I don't know how to get near you anymore...
I'm scared, to be neglected..

I wish for the moment to come,
That we can still talk...
That we can smile...
And I specially hope,
That when the time comes,
I'd be marching on the aisle,
With you ahead of me...
As my maid of honor,
Or otherwise.

How are you Ai Lin...

I hope you're fine.

I hope, you're better.

I hope we can talk.

.....

No one can ever take your place...

You are, and will always be my forever bestfriend.

Even if you forget me, I won't.

You might find a new bestfriend.

I might have new special friends.

But you're always be different.

As you're my bestfriend.

.....

I miss you.

I love you.

Take Care.

3hrs of sleep = bangag

2008-02-26T00:36:00.000-08:00

I slept around 12noon today, woke up around 3??? The hell... hehe.. basta gising na ko at di na makatulog pa, goodluck naman sa kin mamaya sa work di ba???

Got a learning session to attend to tonight by 8pm, plus a Focus Group Discussion with the HR after that.. I just hope, stuffs would sink in my mind in this state huh?

Anyhoo, just came from a long break from our province, Abra, as my parents arrived from Fla. Had so much fun being with my parents again after two years... and being a "yaya con ninang con tita" to my cute pamangkins - Mathel and Kant (pix to come on the next posts).

Ane news? Well my cuz' boyfriend (Mathel's dad) recently passed the board for Medicine. He's now a licensed Neurologist, hopefully, what comes next is wedding bells for him and Yeng. And sana, bridesmaid haha.. (naadik) at ninang pa rin syempz ni Mathel,, =)

What else - the big question of my relatives is "When will I get MARRIED?".. Almost all of them asked me same question over and over; as my cousins has started settling down, raising their kids.

And the answer is - NOT YET. Matagal pa noh, hahaha... I have yet to let my "prince" know that I exist.. lol..

Any pasalubong? Hmmm..as requested, Guess and Pleasures parfum...plus one more coming from my sis that has just arrived from Saudi. Chocolates? Typical.. and one thing I liked most is the huggable stuffed toy, in the form of a dog... and I named her as N****... (ops, the name's confidential, hehe)

Wala akong masyadong pasalubong, di kasi nila alam what I like, tsktsk.. typical from parents who have been away from their child for what, 13yrs now? hehe.. kaya sabi ko, CASH is good.. hihi.. =)

Uhm, enough posts for now... bangag pa ko..

Ops ---something really made me smile last night, but it's a secret! (wink wink)

I.. Me..and Myself @ Pangasinan

2008-02-20T02:30:00.001-08:00

Pangasinan Trip: Feb 16-17, 2008

2008-02-20T01:52:00.001-08:00

..is there really a hundred of them..? or more..?

2008-02-19T20:42:00.000-08:00

..which do you think is the best shot..for a beautiful sunset like this..?

2008-02-19T16:48:00.001-08:00

Ariba Christmas Party '07

2008-02-13T03:31:00.000-08:00

My Cuz' Kaye's wedding/Kant's baptism - Sept 15, '07

2008-02-13T02:27:00.001-08:00

...this is Kant, 6mos that time, Kaye and Den's baby...

with tita con ninang cloudz...

..the maid of honor na hindi nakatingin sa camera, tsktsk..

the secondary sponsors...with rochel, my cuz.. (far right on the first pix)

the beautiful bride,Kaye... hehe. pagbibigyan kita kasal mo nmn eh..
kaya ikaw pinakamaganda that day, heheheh.. :)

..the maid of honor and the bride..

the bride's parents... Ate Xanne, and Ng Auring..

..of course, presenting Dennis..the groom.. bagay noh? :)..

..hehe, hirap mapasama sa entourage..di ako makakuha ng pictures...wahhhhh..

this is Mathel, my Yeng (my cuz, Kaye's ate)'s baby..3 moths old that time..
(kainggit, ako na lang walang baby, huhuhu)

..this is Yeng, gaganda namin noh, hehe..

on the left, is Marison, and my Ate Win..then ako, hehe.

another gem sa family, Rochelle, my cuz.. ;)
(nakakahalata na ko, what''s with my angle??)

The newlyweds, Mr. and Mrs. Dennis Balmaceda

...konti lang ang family members na present eh.. my parents and bro Summer were in the states, my ate Spring is in Qatar, bro Rainy is in UAE..

last pic na yan, hehe!

home home home..

2008-02-13T02:09:00.000-08:00

I'm at home right now, kauuwi ko lang... eto, ngsusurf... while nanonood ng tv...umiinom ng Hershey's na cookies and cream...while Mona, my room mate is sound asleep... hehe. Iniistorbo ko lng naman ang pagtulog nya sa lakas ng sound ng tv.

Hmmm, as usual tatambay lng ako dito sa room ko, hehehe...

Pictures to come. =)

Upcoming Pangasinan Trip...

2008-02-12T17:09:00.000-08:00

di na naman ako nakakapagpost ng pics, hehe... di bale, when I get back by Sunday night, mglalagay ako ng sangkaterbang pix!.. =)

anyhoo, this coming weekend, my teammates, along with some of our officemates are going to Pangasinan, particularly in Hundred Islands.. yipeee!!!

I'm so excited about it, I've been wanting to see the place ever since, but never got the chance... the islands, the beach... cool.. sayang lang, wasn't able to buy my dream camera, Sony Cybershot DSC T2 (kelan kaya kita mabibili???)...kasi naman po, inuna ko laptop, hahaha.. adik eh. Of course, I intend to learn programming and the tech stuff that my kind of work requires, kaya ko gusto magkalaptop, hehe... (lulusot pa eh noh, gusto lng magkanet sa bahay, kasi sa office di accessible ang friendster, youtube, YM, at downloads, hehehe!) ... yup got my new compaq laptop, worth.... wag na, nakakasama ng loob, hehe.. :)

And another thing i'm sooooo excited about is, Lanie requested me to take their (together with dennis, of course) pre-nup pictorial at Hundred Islands this coming Saturday...yipee!!! I'm so excited, kasi, one, they trusted me to be the one to take their photos, though, 2nd option nila ako, as their photographer friend can't be reached.... second, ung utak ko, gumagana na, nagiimagine na ng magandang setting, positions , angles, etc, hehehe.. third, i love taking photos!!! Though I love being on the photos more, hahha.. I still love taking it, especially, pag my background na views... whoaaaa.. :D and ... may fourth pa... I love weddings!!! Pre to post, anything related to it.. kaya go prenups eto! (Speaking of wedding photography, Mimi+Karl is my fave, I always view their blog... kaya pag ako kinasal, sila rin ang magiging photographer ko... sana maafford ko (namin ng kung sino mang diablo ang mapangasawa ko! haha)

I may not be a Pro on photography, but I'll sure do my best to take good pictures of them..

Frustrated photographer ako noh, hahaha... I loved joining photo journalism back in Highschool, hehe. :)

Oh well... 2 days to go, Pangasinan trip na, hehe!

Pero bukas, valentines na.. :(

haha, ang mga loveless.. eh trabaho ang ka-date, hihihi.. =)

Touched...

2008-02-12T16:15:00.000-08:00

"I hope you’re feeling better now in terms of your personal life. If there’s anything we can do, please don’t hesitate to approach us. We are also your friends here not only your co-workers.

It’s really one of your habits right now to provide exceptional service to the clients. Continue to build on this good initiative and inspire your teammates to do the same. Thanks Cloudy, your great work is a reflection of the team’s continuous success. I just hope that this gets rubbed on to the other side of your life =)"

---this mail came from Arnel.. my teamlead... I really appreciate people around me, especially if they hope that you be ok... they become a reason for you to try to smile... and set 'other' things aside....

Keep it up and always put a smile on your face - from Ollie..

Thanks to my teammates, and some officemates and friends, for always being there for me.. :) I'll be fine, don't worry.. =)

kainis!

2008-02-12T15:57:00.000-08:00

hay nakakainis... mapalapit ka lng sa isang tao, issue na agad...
ganun ba pag single ka, lahat pilit ina-attach sa yo??? what duh..

para lagi mo lang nakakausap, nakakabiruan, ililink ka na.. wala nang santuhan kung 'attached' yung tao o hindi... anu ba naman yun, respeto please????
maging kapartner mo lang sa game, nagkakamabutihan na raw...

eh kung lahat na lng nang makausap mo, igagawan ka ng issue... wag na nga kaya akong mkipagusap pa eh noh?? tapos mgsusuplada na lng ako ever.. hehe!bitch!

eh kung magchange preference na lng kaya ako? haha, nang girls naman ang i-link sa kin.. and not guys.. tsktsk.. mapagisipan nga yan...
from now on, I'll start trying to 'notice' gurls, wahehehe.. :)

kung hei fat choi!

2008-02-06T18:06:00.000-08:00

I'm not actually a chinese, to celebrate new year... as mentioned on the homily of the priest , during last night's ash wednesday mass... he said, celebrating ash wednesday means - being reborn, living a new life, new way of living, new you...

And forget about being a cyclops - the one eyed monster on literature... We are actually being cyclops.. not regarding the "eye" but with us as always pertaining to ourselves "I". It's always .... I'm buying this, I'll do this, I'll eat this, I'll go there... always "I"..

Upon waking up in the morning - what shall "I" eat? what shall "I" wear?

Even if we use the word me, still connotes the same thought - what's in store for "me' in the office today?

Let's start thinking about others too... enough of catering to our own selves..what's best for us... begin taking into consideration other people too...

And it's never too late to start it now... in time for the ash wednesday... it's a time of renewal...

And of course, the meaning of the ash... we came from ash, and we'll always end up being one... so let's not forget about that..lahat tayo parepareho...

Don't be too proud of who we are ... practice humility, at all times.. :)

Minsan talaga, sa mass mo pa matutunan, o sa mass pa tayo nareremind kung paano tayo dapat as human beings... kaya don't ever forget your obligations as a Christian, a Catholic, or whatever your religion is... don't ever forget the Lord..

I'm a bit happy?

About what? About life? About friends? About work? About family?

Perhaps everything....

Smile krawdee... "okay lang yan"... "normal lang yan"... =)

goodmorning Monday!!!

2008-02-03T15:02:00.000-08:00

Aloha! It's a brand new week ahead... and how am I?? Just lately, been thinking of leaving home, technically, leaving our boarding house. WHY??? Simply, I just can't withstand staying in the same house, with my room adjacent to my ex's????

Swear, the feeling is soooo terrible! Soooo awkward! Soooo depressing!

I got to stay inside my room, most hours of the day... hiding... in my own haven...
I sleep,listen to music, watch tv/dvd, read mags, eat... eventually, surf the net.. all in there...

I had a great Sunday yesterday, I went out with my cuz con kumare, Kaye-kaye.. we attended the holy mass at Greenbelt Chapel, had lunch at Landmark, bought 'pasalubongs' to my inaanaks and pamangkins in the province, as I'm bound to go home on the 21st-24th of Feb for a little vacation... as my parents are coming home from Fla.

Then we set off to watch a movie - 27 Dresses! Cool! I almost could relate to that - as I love weddings too, tears fall as I see the bride walking down the aisle, looking eye-to-eye with the groom , full of love and parents are giving her away...(argh! same fave spot of Jane in the movie), and, another part I love in a wedding is, the exchange of vows...

I've been wondering, will I ever experience a wedding for myself? Huh?!? Not for now, not soon.. blah blah...

Anyhoo, we enjoyed the movie...

We also went to Timezone, had some dance revo (though I'm not good at it, just for fun!)... and ate at Wendy's...

It's nice hanging around with a cousin at times, as you get to make "chika" about the rest of your clan, of your old schoolmates.. this and that..

And you get to share what's happening with you own lives now. :)

Kaye told me my inaanak, her son, Kant, 10 months old... got sick for a couple of days.. awww, sorry baby, Ninang wasn't there for you...

That's all, got a lot of stuff to do! See yah!

***Ops! May magic sing chip na kami sa bahay, hurray!!! ***

..silence..

2008-01-29T18:39:00.000-08:00

I'm at work, busy doing some resolutions for clients.. while listening to the radio..
Then a song, suddenly played on the radio...the song is the english version for "basta't kasama kita" ...

Ganun ba talaga? Even if the message isn't completely the same as how you are feeling, pakiramdam mo, the song totally relates to you..

And then it makes you cry... memories just come pouring in..

And then all there is --- silence.

cinta

2008-01-27T21:46:00.000-08:00

"It is always painful to know that someone is irrevocably gone, and all that's left are memories of beautiful days gone by...

Sometimes it boggles my mind why people fall in love, then they say goodbye.. why they cannot belong forever when at first, the can never seem to part.. "

.. and sometimes, why does one's heart, keeps loving someone, even if, everything between you is gone...

TATTOO by Jordin Sparks

2008-01-27T15:49:00.000-08:00

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)

[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

[Chorus x2]

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

Ariba Models' Pictorial

2008-01-27T15:29:00.000-08:00

JPMC Teambuilding - Amazing Race 12-01-07

2008-01-27T15:27:00.000-08:00

FYI: My team, with Paul and Jovie, won.. hehe.. ;p

no more pix???

2008-01-27T15:23:00.000-08:00

hey, it's rare for me not to be showing pictures on this blog.. tsktsk...

lately kasi, I'm more of making this blog of mine, a diary... kasi, nilalabas ko lahat ang saloobin ko rito, feeling ko kasi, this is one person, na pwede ko lang pagbuhusan ng nararamdaman ko, naiisip ko...nang hindi sya ngcocomment, hindi nagrereact, hehe..

and sometimes I need that..but just SOMETIMES...

di bale mgpopost na po ako pag my time.. :D

I'm missing someone...

2008-01-27T15:11:00.000-08:00

... and that's you kapatid... :)

Jan 27 - day off

2008-01-27T14:53:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, Mona (as in Ramonalyn) and I, went to attend our TL Arnel's bunso's christening.. held at Balintawak Church. Kate's barely two months old, and quite a big baby.. and really cute.. taken from her parent's of course.. :)

***Jay, has fooled us again, he agreed the night before to come along with us, and guess what, he'll inform us by 10am, that he went to fetch his dad from the airport!!! And so, he can't come... hoy jay, dapat kagabi mo pa sinabi, labo!!!!

Anyway, during the reception, we really made "lamon", and forgot our strict diets.. and so the twice a week gym exercises, became useless - as again! huh?!?

After that, we met up with Mona (as in Monalisa, my friend) in Trinoma and off we went to shopping! Actually, it was just me that bought stuffs.. hehe.

I'm back to dayshift, and so I had to have formal clothes again. Tsktsk. I bought 2 pair of shoes, 2 formal skirts, 1 formal dress, 4 tops.. not quite much, huh? ;p

And yeah, shopping has served as my therapy, when I'm depressed. So rather than locking in my room, cuddling in my bed, crying by and by... I'd rather ---spend!!!

<--- but the next worry then would go to credit card bills!! haha..

Anyway, I had fun yesterday, I was with two Mona's in my life, officemate and friend, hehe.. It's a good thing they were able to enjoy each other's company as well..

Everytime I call on one of them as "Mona!" both looks at me, hehe.. Next time, I'll call them with their full names - Ramonalyn and Monalisa.. :p

Now folks, at 6am, I was already in the office, answering my mails.. ;p

It's a work day for me...

...it's been awhile...

2008-01-27T14:29:00.000-08:00

it's been awhile..
and we've been like strangers to each other..
it hurts to see you around..
it pains not to get to talk to you,
smile at you, hold you..
just like before..

i've been coping up..
trying to be strong enough,
not to mind your presence,
treat you as inexistent in my life..

i miss the days,
i miss the laughters,
i miss the conversations,
i miss the fun,
i miss the love...
i miss everything...
about you, about us...

sometimes i think,
what if i wasn't brave enough,
brave enough to accept the fact,
that there was something wrong in us..
that it's better to let go..
would it have been fixed?

i wanted to keep it,
i wanted to keep you,
but i can't find enough reasons to...

thank you..
for everything...
for the love,
for the trust,
for the care,
for the fun,
for the time,
for the dreams,
for the moments,
for the learnings,

you'll always be in my heart...

...my heart speaking...

2008-01-04T09:33:00.000-08:00

I've met you, on the 11th of October 05..
For few months prior that, I've been watching you play your games in the court..
I've been secretly hoping you'd notice me..

And meeting you, was a very memorable day.
On an instant I knew you were special to me.

Friendship bloomed.
Admiration... to Love.

27th of March 06, we became an 'us'...

Everyday with you, I considered heaven..

I almost left for the US,
But I wanted to be here..
With you.
Good thing it didn't push through..

We survived,
In a new world here..
We lived a new life,
Far different back in college..

We've had problems, challenges,
Mistakes...
Small ones, to major matters..
We stood by each other,
Supported...

We lived happily, and contented,
As I thought we were..

Then, came her...
I thought hell came over.

Everything was ruined.
Everything was gone.

Love, Trust...
You...

I called everything off,
But realized can't live without you...

I needed you back...
You wanted me back...
I accepted you back...

Holidays, it was nice...
Didn't thought it would be our last...

Then we're back,
To our former life
To the past,

Pain refreshed...
All coming back,
Realized,
I'm not over it,
Still hurting,
And I can't live with it any longer..
I can't trust..

Jan 07, 2007...
I decided, I'm done...
I want this to stop.
And that was the end..

That was what I thought..

I was okay with my life...
I've moved on,
I was happy...
I've lived a new life,
Away, and apart from you..

We met new people...

Then came you,
And by July,
I took the risk,
To have you back again,
I knew, I loved you,
I still loved you..
I was happy,
Initially..

We were okay,
Perhaps, we assumed we were okay...

Then you've been acting strange,
Or to say,
You were becoming a stranger,

I don't see you,
I can't feel you,
I'm missing your love...
I'm missing my hon..

Then an incident broke the silence.
Yes, there is a problem.
There had been a problem..
That we've been blinding ourselves with..

Space was needed,
To think, to find one's self..

I've been trying to look for signs,
That you, are still there, that you are still mine...
But all I feel and see, is emptiness...
You're gone.

End of year 2007...
Became the end of the relationship that we had..

The decision to find ourselves,
Ended up, finding out that we needed to be end this...

A relationship isn't only built on love..
But also in trust..companionship..
And both, should grow, and mature in it..

But we've drifted apart...

Any 3rd parties involved?
None.
As far as I know, and wouldn't want to know - none.

All I know is, I needed to grow up for now,
And you too..

I wanted out..
and I know,
This is what is needed,
If this is right..
I don't know..
But I've prayed to Him,
To guide me in my decision...

I loved you, so much...
And I'm happy, coz'
I know I've made you feel that..

You recently told me..
That you're sorry for giving me mostly pain...
And I told you,
I loved you, and I don't have regrets loving you..
Pain was part of it..
The more I withstood those hurtful moments..
The more I'm strengthened the love I had in you..

Only this time,
It's different...
My heart is tired...
I just want to be freed...
I want to grow, mature...
I won't rush on love...
True Love waits, as my bestfriend always say.

Last words..
I know, I had my own share of mistakes,
misgivings...
I'm sincerely sorry...

I love you,
sabi nga nila, masyado kitang minahal ...
Heck, true enough.

I just needed to let go this time..

Thank You.

Goodbye to "us".

2008...

2007-12-31T08:59:00.000-08:00

It's year 2008...

A new year, a new beginning, a new chapter of life...

New friends to meet, new things to do,

More challenges,more sadness, more joy...

New bf...perhaps not...

This year, I'd like my heart to take a rest...

I've been tired, loving, hurting...

Just for now, just this time,

I just want to be on my own...

Perhaps, just love myself.

Uhm, on the second thought...

I can keep a 'dream' right??? (whapaaakkkkk!)

Year 2007

2007-12-31T06:23:00.000-08:00

I would like to make a review of how my life has been during this year..

Started this year, broken..as I parted ways with Leo...
Mid of the year...reunited with him...
By the end of the year... he's out of my life, just again..

... my life has been such a rocky road this year...

Much of it was full of pain, sadness...

The good thing is, throughout this year...I gained important people in my life...

My Teletech, UHG 4.1 Wave mates...
Jeff, Yanix, Jho, May, Ecca, and everyone else, I miss you..

My teammates, from ePurchase...who I've been working with, and been friends with..
Jay, Paul, Wengcheng, Patrickness, Lanie, Arnel,Francia, Francis, Ollie, Mona, Dean, Amabel...

Patrickness - your being 'maartie' gives me smile..
Ollie - who became a 'listener' and always said 'i told you so' to me..
Mona - my 'gymmate', and has always given me a shoulder to cry on..
kAyKaY - the constant 'chat mate', my fellow 'bitch' , haha.. wavyu...
Roslyn - for always being there reminding how "adik" i am..
Al - sorry for making you mad... =)
RJ - a new friend..
Rony - for being patient to me, ;D

Ariba JPMC peepz...
Epurchase/Sparc L1, L2, L3 - ...
who became my new family in Accenture...

To the "old" people in my life -- Inay Tootz, Mona, Brendz, Jane, CACES Peepz, SLU Peepz, salamat sa pagiging bahagi pa rin ng buhay ko.

To my family - I miss you..

Teenuh - the 'ultimate bestfriend' andyan pa rin, hehe.. mahal na mahal kita..

Other highlights...
went to Puerto Galera,
joined the soccer team,
caught two bridal bouquets,
became a godmother to my nephew, Kant,
first time to see Manila Zoo and Luneta,
won in the JPMC Amazing Race,
joined the Ariba Top Model, (even if I lost, haha!)
had a Metrowalk Night with officemates-friends,
spent Christmas in Bulacan...

I did a couple mistakes this year...
I've hurt few people...And I'm sorry, I didn't mean to cause those pain,
It's just that, sometimes, you had to choose...from the limited options that you had..
Wrong choices, wrong decisions...
'Best options among the least'

I also hope I did some good deeds, more than the bad.. hehe. (bitch!)

Lastly, to the Lord, thanks for keeping me healthy, and blessed.. and strong, to be facing another year, and more years to come...

COOL OFF

2007-12-18T10:36:00.001-08:00

Wag ka munang magalit
Ako sana’y pakinggan
Di ko balak ang ika’y saktan
Hindi ikaw ang problema
Wala akong iba
Di tulad ng iyong hinala

Sarili ay di maintindihan
Hindi ko malaman, ano ba ang dahilan
Ng pansatamantalang paghingi ko ng kalayaan
Minamahal kita, pero kelangan ko lang mag-isa

[chorus]
Wag mong isipin na hindi ka na mahal
Sarili ko’y hahanapin ko lang
At ang panahon at ang oras ng aking pagkawala
Ay para rin sa ating dalawa

Wag ka sanang lumuha
Sana’y intindihin
Ito ang dapat nating gawin
Upang magkakilala pa
At malaman kung tayo
Ay para sa isa’t isa

Wag mong pigilin ang damdamin
Sa aking pagkawala, makahanap ka bigla ng iba
Ngunit pakakatandaan
Na mahal pa rin kita, pero kelangan ko lang mag-isa

[repeat chorus]

Sarili ay di maintindihan
Hindi ko malaman, ano ba ang dahilan
Ng pansatamantalang paghingi ko ng kalayaan
Minamahal kita, pero kelangan ko lang mag-isa

[repeat chorus]

ang bestfwend ko BINOYCOT ako...wahhhhh

2007-11-01T10:52:00.000-07:00

What will you do, if your most loved friend in this damn world is mad at you??? You rather die, hehehe...
Well, not actually galit, binoboycot lang nya ako because of this diet-gym-slimming thing I'm going through, hehe..
Kakausapin lang daw nya ko ulit pag tinigil ko na to... eh mahal kong kapatid, kayo na nga nina leo ang laging nagsasabing ang taba taba ko na... etc.. which made me develop this insecurity, na feeling ko ang taba ko na nga so much, and na parang ang pangit ko na tuloy.. hehe.
Kaya ayan, nagdecide na akong magpapayat...
Pero kung ang kapalit naman ng pagpapayat na eto eh, iboboycot mo ako, eh, as if naman matitiis kita noh??? Hindi naman sa ititigil ko na , hehe.. pero, I'll promise na, I'll eat regularly... 3X a day, with snacks pa..(though, lesser,hehe) and I'll go to the gym, hindi naman daily, 2-3 times a week lang po.. pwamish.. :)
Sige na bati na tayo.. cry cry na ko oh, *sniff* *sniff*
Anyways, this slide is for you, to remind you na, wag mo na akong boycot-in please.. hehehe... we're like this, i'm the devil and you've always been the angel,hehehe!

-I-LOVE-YOU-TEENUH-CHAN-

3G

2007-10-12T13:36:00.000-07:00

Let me introduce to you to the 3G - Tatlong Gunggong in fact, now, 3I na, Tatlong Inggitero, hehehe.
It's composed of Cloudz-Leighyoh-Teenuh..
We've been together since,4th yr college?
Teenuh is my bestfriend.
And Leighyoh, is my boyfriend.
We've always had fun together.. we can do anything, eat anywhere, laugh at things.
We can make fool of ourselves together, and we can manage to be happy and contented just by doing nothing..
These loves making fun of me, of my balat (birthmark), my toes, my nose, my weight, my size(they always tell me I'm fat!)...
We'll I also make fun of Teenuh's malnourished state, and Leighyoh's mabahong utot..haha!!!!!
We are now INGGITEROS because, naiinggit kami sa isa't isa, hehe. wala lang! :D

college friends..

2007-10-11T15:41:00.000-07:00

These are the people I met and been with during my college days...
Classmates, co-officers... They are all special to me. :)
I miss you guys, hoping that some day, we'd bump into each other...
Oct13-14, and Oct 20-21, are the CPA Board Exam days, and majority of these people are gonna take it, so I hope and pray, you all the best , and God bless ya all! *HUGZ*

..my family..

2007-10-11T13:32:00.000-07:00

I'm an Ilocana. Native for that most likely.
I was born in Baguio, grew up in Abra, I stayed there till Highschool..
Then in college, I moved to Baguio for my studies in SLU.
And now, I've been living here in Manila.

I grew up with the typical, traditional family.
Close ties, but sort of not really,
Because majority of relatives on the Father side,
Have migrated in the states.

Where do I start..
I'm the youngest of SIX children in the family.
From.. Roxanne, Rainy, Spring, Winnee, Summer and Cloudy.
You may call Roxanne as Sun,
Winnee as Win or Wind...
And me as Cloudz...

As a kid, I was playful..
Proofs, are my scars in the knee, and anywhere else (Sssshhh)..
I've been tagged as "maarte", "isnabera"
I liked wearing pairs..
If it's red, then everything on me is red, top to bottom..
If it's pink, then pink it is.

I was sort of, studious back in elementary, highschool, I guess, a bit in college too...
I've always been on the top ranks (haha, kapal!!!!!)
But really, I wasn't a lazy student, I always wanted to do good with my studies.
Believe it or not, I've experienced gaining Academic Scholarship during college,
Due to being the #7 in the Dean's List of the whole College of Accountancy and Commerce..
In Elementary, I was just the 2nd Honorable Mention Awardee (4th yun, pinaganda lng, hehe), but in HS, medyo, napariwara??? kidding, transferred to different schools..
so ended up, being one of upper ranked students, but, cannot be awarded to be an honor, because, I was a transferee.

But it's all okay. I enjoyed that. I had friends from different schools. =)

As a cousin, well, competition will always be there,
Especially if you all belong in the same age bracket..
Good thing is, it was a healthy competition..
Look at us now, we're all graduates..

Yeng is a registered nurse,
Kaye has graduated, and will be taking her CPA review by November..
I graduated with a Management course, ended up as an Associate Software Engineer
The difference is, they both have kids now..
They left me single .. :)
Ooopps, Yeng hasn't gotten married yet.

Anyway, I'd like to show you some of the pictures with my family..
Cousins, parents, sisters (minus my brothers), pamangkins too..

Also a picture of our farm (though not seen)
It's our little kubo, located in the farm, (I partly own? haha)
...

Unfortunately, don't have yet the pictures of our new little angels in the family..
I'd post them later, including, those taken during my cousin's wedding. =)

=)

2007-10-11T09:34:00.000-07:00

I've been through a lot in this life's journey,
A lot of challenges came my way..
Heartaches too..

Before, I was too weak.
That I'd easily break down,
And cry in one corner..

But those moments,
Have made me stronger,
Now, I may be on a down moment..
But I can always show myself to everybody,
Than I'm very okay.

No one would ever notice,
That within me,
My heart is crying.. bleeding.

Thanks to the invention of SMILEYS,
Either in text, in emails, or in chat,
You could always fake your emotions. =)

Losing..

2007-10-08T11:51:00.000-07:00

It's painful to lose something, or someone...

To Casper..

Losing a pet,
is like losing a part of yourself..
You've raised him, like your own baby..
You fed him,
Bought him those pet foods..
Take care of him..
Bathe him,
Buy him pet toys...

You've been used to hearing his barks everytime you arrive home..
His biting your pants, your toes, your slippers, or your shirt..
Cleaning his dirts in the house...
Even if I get mad at you some times,
For being so hard-headed,
I cared for you, so much..

"Casper come here"... "Casper, out"

And now, he's totally out from my life,
From our lives...
I miss you baby,
You know we , at home, all loved you..

If there's a heaven for animals,
I hope you go there..

To Lolo Richard..

We've known for almost two years now,
May not be lawful yet, but I'm like your granddaughter already..
I've never experienced taking care of a lolo,
Since mine has been living in the states...
And never got a chance to take care of him...

I thank you for the jogging pants,
I thank you for the simple 'pangungumusta'..
I miss the "mano po's"...
I'll miss going down to your house,
Bringing you food..
We, Leo and Tina, and also Inay, will miss those moments..

I know time has come for you to rest,
And I'm sure you'd rest in peace..
And you've been longing to see Lola in the other side too...

I hope that those people that you've left,
Will always remember you, and treasure the memories with you..

It's always hard to lose someone..

When you meet a person,
There would be this degree of willingness,
To get in to that person's life,
Be involved,
Share some laughters,
Share some thoughts,
Share some anger
Or share some pissoffs..
Share some loneliness..

May be share a cup of coffee,
And a little breakfast with that..

But sometimes,
It only takes a minute, or two,
And all that you've started is gone..
All that you've shared,
All that you've built..
Be it a friendship,
Or a special relationship..

All vanishes...in a glimpse of an eye..

For those that I've lost...

Be it a pet, a thing, or someone...

I'd surely miss you..
I'd miss everything...
From the time that we've met,
Till the last day that we talked...
I hope I'll have the power to bring you back..
But I know I cannot...

And that it's not possible..

it's my Rheyo's birthday...

2007-07-26T15:29:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday Anikoh..

It’s your 23th birthday..

I wish you all the blessings in life and career..

I wish that you become a great man.. both as a son, as a friend, as a person and as my partner..

You’re doing a good job with how you are now..

Continue doin’ so..

Always remember that I’ll always be here for you..

To love, support, and take care of you..

I wish that we could celebrate our birthdays together till we grow old..

I love you…

..things I wished for.. :)

2007-07-25T12:40:00.000-07:00

My anikoh (Leo) asked for my wishlist on my past birthday...he was tempting me of the stuffs I wanted..

...I wanted to have a facial (for the first time!)
...I wanted to have a pair of Havaianas slippers (coz' I don't want to spend almost a thousand for a pair of flip flops,kuripot!)
...I wanted an IPOD Video...
...I've been secretly wishing him to give me a bouquet of flowers (for the longest time now..)...

...and guess what?!? I got everything except the facial.. :) which is alright, I plan to have it before September..

..some bonuses, I got a surprise party at home, as prepared by Tina, Mona and of course, Leo..

..then a tarpaulin with my pictures on it..also a personalized birthday cake..

..and before I went to sleep that night, the unexpected.. - ipod!!!..

..i was soooooo surprised,and i love it.. :)

..but of course, the most important thing that ever happened that day is that, I had my friends and my hon with me.. thanks to you all, and love you.. :)

it's Summer's Birthday - July 25..

2007-07-25T12:15:00.000-07:00

..it's my brother's birthday today, (USA EST time).. it's his 30th birthday..and still single,hehe.. surely I wouldn't reach that age as single.. :p

..hmmmm, good for you, you're with our parents during your birthdays..me? I haven't celebrated my birthday with them around since I was 9 years old..coz' practically, more than half of my life, all of you have lived there..

..and you my dear brother, Summer, I haven't experienced having a brother for a very long time now.. :/ (mad? hehe)

..but anyway dude, hope you're always okay.. i miss you..i miss having a "Manong".. that could give me advises on the stuff that I do..

..I never experienced someone to guard me when it comes to boys, because even before I reached my adolescence, you've left me.. :(

..I know at one point, you were disappointed with me..but I hope, you've forgiven me..

..take care of Nang and Tang, be happy.. :) hugggzzz...

so sleepy...

2007-07-24T16:56:00.000-07:00

hey guys, it's 7:55 in the morning..and I'm dead sleepy.. my shift was 11pm to 8am.. dagdag pa, nananakit na ang ulo ko kakaisip ng gagawin sa 27th, birthday ni Leo..or rather sa 28, for a delayed birthday celebration for him..

..pati tong internet di ako matulungang magdecide what's best to do on that day! huhu!

..can't prepare a surprise party at home because, first, that's so predictable, they did that for me last Saturday (July 21)..

..secondly, i don't have time to prepare a house party coz' I've got work.. :(

..so please, kung may suggestions kayo..tulungan nyo nmn ako,hehe!

BANGS????

2007-07-23T15:05:00.000-07:00

elow..wala lang akong magawa, at sinubukan kong magpa-bangs..hehe.. try lng, I was curious how I'd look like,that's why.. :)

ang taba ko na ba??? hehe...

2007-07-23T14:59:00.000-07:00

hey guys, please judge.. chubby na ba ako??? hehe.. baka by the time that we go to Bora on October, I won't have the guts to wear a two-piece swimsuit anymore..hehe! :)

it's my birthday... July 21..

2007-07-23T14:15:00.000-07:00

..we'll I've turned 22 last Saturday, I was supposed to post a blog on exactly 12MN but due to load of work, I missed to do it..

..another year has passed in my life..and I can say, I've been through a lot during that year... I felt love, guilt, jealousy, pain, anger, hatred, depression, insecurity, doubt, strength, forgiveness, independence...and before my year ended, something has started again..happiness.. and hopefully.. love.. and trust .. that this time.. to work, and be forever..

..I thank God for the forgiveness, strength, and guidance He has given me all throughout my past 21yrs in this world.. With Him, I find peace...God is so great, loving, and compassionate... and I've realized that, when one of the biggest challenges in my life has happened..

..also for the past year, I've realized how blessed I am with the presence of my friends, first, to my forever bestfriend-sister, Kristina Lou..thank you so much, you don't know how much I love you.. to my sis, Mona, to my "tols" - Jane and Jessica..to Brenda..to all of my friends who were there for me ever since.. thanks to you all..

..to my family of course, we may not have seen each other for a while (both to those in my province, and to my family in the states), but I know, I have your love and support..and I want you to know - I love and miss you all..

..to Inay Tootz, you have been a second mother to me - i love you...

..to my work, thank you for providing me a comfortable living,hehehe..

..to my Teletech friends.. I miss you guys..

..to Leo.. at one point in my life, I hated you, but during that time..that I had to let go of what we had.. it made me a stronger person, made me spent more time to get to know myself better..and grow..

..and because of you, I learned how to forgive ..even forgive myself as well..

..now that you're here again, I hope, we could both work things out..and that this time..let's have faith to the love that we have...and put God first in everything we do..

..I am happier with you in my life..

..looking forward to another year of surprises and challenges..and blessings..

..HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRAWDEE..

Puerto Galera Trip Part 4..

2007-07-23T11:59:00.000-07:00

...in the afternoon, we had some more pix taken, while rain was about to fall..

...and, we bought some souvenirs from Puerto...of course, di un nawawala pag napadpad ka sa isang bagong lugar di ba?

...these are the last set of pictures from this puerto galera getaway with my Hon... it was a truly amazing vacation, but what made it more special is that, we were together...

..Thank you lord, for giving us both this chance... Please be there for us, always.. :)

Puerto Galera Trip Part 3..

2007-07-23T09:44:00.000-07:00

...and of course, the main event when you're in an island... the water adventures!
Well, we had snorkling and banana boat..and on Monday morning, we went swimming..
First, we went snorkling at around 6:30 in the morning..the fishes, the corals - everything under the water are really amazing.. how I wish I'm a mermaid..so that I could live with them... hehe! Another thing, the islands were so beautiful..it's my first time to really get a sight of islands.. and I find it so enchanting, that you'd see the green trees, complimenting the blue sea water... whooaaa..what a lovely sight it was.. :)

...we also tried the banana boat ride.. it was exciting... and it was total fun! You might get mad at the motor boat driver, coz' he's the one who causes the banana boat to fall over..but still, it was very enjoyable.. unfortunately, sa minsang pagbagsak ng banana boat, well, tumama mismo ung boat sa legs ko, kaya nagkapasa ako..but hell! it was worth the pain, I loved the ride! :)

Puerto Galera Trip Part 2...

2007-07-23T09:16:00.000-07:00

Upon arrival at around 1:30 pm, of course, first thing to do, take a pix! hehe! After that, hunt for a place to stay...anyway, it's off-peak season, so there's no need for us to do a prior reservation for this trip... and an FYI, this is my advance birthday gift to Leo.. we haven't had such a time together ever since we've been with each other again, since the last 5months of break up.. this trip is some sort of, rekindling the fire??? haha.. anyway, it's just that we did miss each other that much...

We found a place in Mendelluke Suites, it was a simple cozy inn...we stayed there for two nights..the rate was a little cheaper than the usual peak rates...(we had a discount!)

After finding a place to stay for the weekend, we went out to grab some food..we're starving.. :) Puerto has got a couple of seaside restaurants..where mostly offered grilled delights,and good smoothies too..they're all delicious, though a bit expensive.. after lunch, all we wanted was to get some sleep. We both came from a night shift work,that's why... so even if the island is there, the waters are so tempting to swim through..we chose to sleep..and recharged for the next day's adventures..

These pictures are taken till the next morning (Sunday) before starting our water fun...

Puerto Galera Trip Part 1....

2007-07-23T09:10:00.000-07:00

hey guys..here, wanted to share these pictures..though almost a month delayed na.. :)
departure pa lang to..

..haggard, but happy.. :)

2007-07-02T07:59:00.000-07:00

..i'm at work at the moment, but, feeling so sleepy, and tired.. haggard to be exact.. :)
just today, Leo and I arrived from spending the weekend at Puerto Galera.. it was really fun.. though it was quite rainy in the afternoon, it didn't hinder us from enjoying Puerto.. :p

..pictures are to follow, naiwan ko kasi cam sa bahay.. of course, di na nmn ako papahuli sa pagkuha ng pictures,hehe..

..it's really nice to spend the weekend after weeks of straight work..and of course, what makes it more special to take a break, is to spend with someone special to you too.. :-)

angels....

2007-06-05T14:44:00.000-07:00

....here are two of my favorite persons in the world.. my bestfriend teenuh, and of course, my sis, bujoy.. haha.. we call her "bujoy" because of her bangs.. it's like Jolina's days... I'll tell you more bout bujoy than Teenuh, coz, aware na kaung bestfriend ko nga sya...haha.. uhm si bujoy...she's my only batchmate in college..we were both Management students.. my only batchmate kasi, kami ang naging sobrang close talaga during college.. and im so happy that she's now living with us in Makati... :p mabait yan..caring..."malandi"... at sobrang bookish.. hahaha!

...we three are the angels of 168 West Rembo, Makati City..haha!!! of course, sidekicks namin sina Ate Yani..at Ate Cel... hehe! :)

new image??

2007-06-05T14:40:00.000-07:00

haha...nagmamacute lang.. sometimes kulot.. sometimes nakaglasses.. uso ba ang nerdy looks ngaun? anyway..bagay nmn di ba..hehe...
hay... it's quarter to 6 in the morning, and bangag na ko! :(

back home...?

2007-06-01T11:51:00.000-07:00

...hmmm, it's been quite a long time since i last saw you.. after the moment of breaking up.. I actually never thought of seeing you once again.. i thought, it would take years.. till the time that you'll just be a familiar face to me...

...that's what I've struggled for the past months of my life.. i thought i was doin' it pretty well... till..here you are again..

...surprising..yet amazing... :p

Love Stood Still...

2007-05-24T09:52:00.000-07:00

Love was a lighthouse guiding the way
We were two boats on the ocean
Following shadows that led us astray
A case of mistaken emotion
Suddenly you’ve drifted back to my arms
And while we were lost in the dark

Love stood still, pulling us together
Love stood still, leading us towards each other
Now we’re back at the start, ‘cuz while we were apart
Love stood still
Love was a fire burned down to the coals
Waiting for something to spark
We were two fireflies drawn to the glow
Seeing you lit the flames in my heart
I had my reasons for letting you go
But holding you again I know

Love stood still, pulling us together
Love stood still, leading us towards each other
Now we’re back at the start, ‘cuz while we were apart
Love stood still
Now you ask me to say
I’ll always feel this way
Darling, nothing has ever changed

Love stood still, pulling us together
Love stood still, leading us towards each other
Now we’re back at the start, ‘cuz while we were apart
Love stood still

francia's wedding..

2007-05-23T17:27:00.000-07:00

Last March 5, we were witnesses to the exchange of vows of our beloved friend/officemate, Francia, with her long term boyfriend, Joseph.. she was very pretty, and so lovely in her wedding gown.. No words could describe how happy she looked like while walking down the isle..

After 10 years of relationship, they're finally getting married, in the eyes of God , and in the eyes of mankind...

So lucky for people who found their partners.. who found the person, they'd actually promise to love each other forever.. take care of one another.. and remain on each other's sides..on their entire lifetime...

..I hope someday I'll find mine.. :)

*sorry, got no picture for the couple..hehe!

CACES Friends...

2007-05-19T06:36:00.000-07:00

If there are some people that I'd keep the friendship with...are the CACES officers batch '05-06'. We've worked with each other, had good times and bad times...saw each other's weaknesses, but remained to be friends after all.. I miss the rush of organization activities, the challenges.. hey, we manage to be the Most Outstanding Organization for the whole university, and in the city of Baguio itself. And most of all, I miss the Nevada nights, and the coffee afterwards... I just miss all the bondings.. I wish you all to graduate, so that you could all take the CPA review in Manila, and that we could hang out again as before..

sadness...

2007-05-19T05:33:00.000-07:00

hiya... i'm actually in Baguio right now..what for? I don't know...

would it be just for the simple reason that I want to escape the busy city of Manila..run away from work? or rather...

trying to go back to the place I've considered my second home..trying to go back to the place, where I learned how to love that much...to the place where I actually met that person who caused me the pain I never thought I'd ever feel...and survive with...

I don't know..at this point of my life.. I'm confused.. I know I've been hurt.. and at the moment of healing..

I am happy..at least I could say that.. got a good job, got cool friends... but why do i feel empty inside...why do i feel incomplete...

everyone deserves a chance to be truly happy..and i deserve that too...

I hope i could be..I wish I am.. I know I will be..

-=batangas trip=- Apr 07

2007-05-19T02:09:00.000-07:00

JPMC in Baguio....Feb 07

2007-05-19T00:35:00.001-07:00

...last february, me and my teammates went up to the City of Pines for out team building- which turned up to be team bonding..hehe.. sharing some of our pictures taken.. :p

..bestfriends...

2007-05-19T00:03:00.000-07:00

"Friends stand beside eachother through thick and thin, every time you need me i will alwyas be there for you. You make me happy, you make me laugh, you are the best friend anyone could ever have. BEST FRIENDS."

---Teenuh, kapatid..this is our song, you know that.. everytime I listen to this, your in my mind..so grateful to have you as my bestfriend... love you much Ai lin.. mwahh ---

Minsan madarama mo kay bigat ng problema

Minsan mahihirapan ka at masasabing “di ko makakaya”

Tumingin ka lang sa langit

Baka sakaling may masumpungan

Di kaya ako’y tawaginMalalaman mong kahit kailan
[chorus]

Hawak-kamay

Di kita iiwan sa paglakbay

Dito sa mundong walang katiyakan

Hawak-kamay

Di kita bibitawan sa paglalakbay

Sa mundo ng kawalan
Minsan madarama mo

Ang mundo’y gumuho sa ilalim ng iyong mga paa

At ang agos ng problema’y tinatangay ka

Tumingin ka lang sa langit

Baka sakaling may masumpungan

Di kaya ako’y tawagin

Malalaman mong kahit kailan
[repeat chorus]
[bridge]

Wag mong sabihin nag-iisa ka

Laging isipin meron kang kasama

Narito ako oh, Narito ako
[repeat chorus]
Sa mundo ng kawalan

Hawak-kamay,

Hawak-kamay

Sa mundo ng kawalan

welcome to my Greenland.. :)

2007-05-15T01:51:00.000-07:00

haller peepz.. well this is actually my first time to create a blog, and thanks to Patrick, my officemate here, for teaching me how..and of course, as all of my friends would expect, it would be something green... c",

well I guess, this would be the start of opening my own story book to you guys, and i do hope that you'd spare some minutes to browse through my blog..and I'd surely be posting a lot of pix as well, ako pa, I love taking pictures...I guess, it has been my passion..I was just not aware...

anyway..hope you'd like my Greenland.. hehe..

Cheers!

...this is one of my grad pix..pretty noh?

Back Home..

2007-05-14T07:03:00.000-07:00

...do I feel this way..? (*-*)
..no matter how my mind dictates my heart to let go of the feeling, it just can't..maybe, it needs more time..and I hope it's soon...or maybe, my heart just won't allow it to...ussshhhh..!

..here's one of the songs from MYMP's new horizon.. I loved this song, the first time I listened to it, and that's just, a few minutes ago...

Back Home...

How can I stand the day alone
I recall the times when our love was thrown
And how will I get through the day
My tears are falling down
Remembering the words you said

Tell me that our love won’t fade away

Can anybody tell me how a perfect love went wrong
Can anybody heal my heart and mend my broken soul
If there’s someone who can count my tears and all my sorrow
Oh please make him come back home

You promised a lifetime of love that will never fade
Until the day the sun no longer shinesBut you’ve let my heart died
You left me all alone
I’m grieving now
Coz you found someone new

Tell me this is not a game you play

I don’t wanna go on without
No more sleepless nights because of you
Hold me tight don’t ever let me go
Don’t let me go