Thank you.. Chavez.

Strange... but it's almost 4 months, since Marlon and I parted ways.

Yes - we've broken up... just as how other relationships were, it wasn't an easy break up.

The relationship could have been a fast, short one, but still the same, both of us were hurt... both of us hoped that it didn't happen, wished it worked.

Sometimes, in life, we just really have to accept the fact that even if we try too much to make something work out --- it just can't. :(

Perfect example is my relationship with Marlon.

It was a very quick relationship, founded in mere admiration and likeness of each other, both were blinded of what we thought was 'love', but only to find out --- it's not yet "it".

It hurts to know that the person you care so much, couldn't care less where you're not around.

It saddens to know, that the person whose name is the first that you can think of upon waking up, cannot think of you unless you make yourself visible to that person...
Visible in such a way that it would take a text or call for that person to be reminded that 'you're there'...

It pains to know that you're the last in that person's priorities...

It hurts more to know, that the person you thought meant the word 'i love you', didn't honestly mean it all this time...

I'm sorry.

We shouldn't have taken this path that soon...we could've waited till the feelings could grow deeper, before taking it to a higher level.

I know we tried. I did try. I wanted to try more.

But there are reasons, reasons I know, and you know --- why we were not able to try more.

I thought, we could be friends after, then start on the right ground.
But sometimes, it makes it hard to fulfill something, when people around you affects you - worse, you let them take over you.

It takes much for a relationship to survive, when people around you, disagrees into it. From the start of the relationship, they aren't in favor of us. It could have been fruitful, if they were just wishing us to be happy in the end.

But I also couldn't blame them. Perhaps, we can't really see what other people see in us.

They could be right. They could be wrong.

But even if this has ended, always remember, I cared, and will always care.
I did love you, could be not that much yet, but I know, in my heart, and in my own ways, I did love you.

Second chances? I don't know. I'm not closing doors. But I'm not keeping hopes.
You're free now. Find your happiness, I'll find mine.

And, thank you. Thank you for a lot of things.
Thank you for the happy moments.
You made me a better a person, you might not know it, but you did.
There's a part of me that was healed, because of you.

Thank you.
Chavez.