Words been said.. and they hurt.

I've been crying on this for awhile... a week.
I really can't tell anymore why..and how... as I just don't want to remember it...

But I now acknowledge, that, even though you have your family... at some point you are still strangers to one another. What more if you weren't together for 17years?

Words been said. And they hurt. Deeply.

I was on my way home driving from Holly Springs, and I started crying while on the highway - that's not safe. Driving in the highway, disoriented, is a no-no.
I'm away from friends, not a single person I can actually talk to about this for the past week, that I had to just keep it inside.
That crying is my only way out. :(

I hate being depressed. Well except for some major relationship breakups or whatever.

But family-wise, it never occurred to me.

To give just a little idea, suddenly, I became the bad child.
I became someone without respect to parents.
That sucks.

One of my closest friends told me...
"just move on from it Cloud, it will do you no good to dwell on it, you know, we know, you're not even close to being a bad child"...

My father texted me... saying my mother is now okay, and that they didn't mean it saying those.. and saying we must forgive and forget, both ways. I said, yeah, I'm fine about it. It's just that words been said and they really hurt. Just give me a little space for now, I just need to heal.

I know I should keep that space short.
I should be fine sooner.

My parents (grandparents) are old.
I should not give them any burden like this.
And I love them.

Hope it'll be over soon.

*Yeah, I'm pertaining to my Nanang and Tatang in Florida, which are my biological grandparents... But I've grown up acknowledging them as my parents. :)