Tyler Hurley... :)

Tyler,

You're one of the best things that happened to me in the US...

It was nice to finally having the chance to talk to you, laugh with you, be with you...

You loved country music, you watched Naruto, you can sing rap, you surely have the voice for country songs and could take over Josh Turner's , you dance when your drinking, you play ps3 a lot, you love motocross, you sleep talk, you don't really snore, you like driving in the snow, you love your wagovan eventhough it breaks down some times, you're only 24 but you act like 27, you're a responsible drinker, you complain on your back/shoulder a lot but never really got the massage you needed, you never smoked, you have broken a lot of bones (lol), you like to snowboard, which you haven't done recently, you used to skateboard too, you drink water a lot, you don't like soda, you like sour stuff, you like candies, you hate Accenture (haha), you like java, you wanted to become a java programmer but you ended up as sysadmin in Acn, you hate performance ratings, you love your family, you love the countryside, you like driving in the country, you like the beach too, you prefer soft, chewy chocolate chip cookie rather than crunchy, you eat anything, top food choice - momma's cooking (lol); you don't like hot/too spicy food, and indian food is not one of your top food choices, you think filipino food is weird too, lol; you're a gentleman - perhaps, a country guy's nature, you do look like a ghost when you're badly sick, you're worst sickness ever is always on stomach and you hate it; you don't have a girlfriend and you say those crap isn't for you, and that you're no fun, which I don't believe so; you like color blue, but there's one particular long sleeve red checkered polo that you wear a lot, you're a geek when you were a kid, wearing those huge glasses while growing up, so cute; you had a longer curly hair before and you looked damn hot, figured if I'd be an ECU student back your time, I'd be stalking you around, lol; don't get me wrong, as I've said before, you still look good with your short (almost gone) hair, wondering how you look like if you're bald (haha); you don't drink coffee, you watched twilight movies (even if you don't admit, lol), I'm sure you'd see the last part too, haha; you don't wear black slacks in the office, you wear khaki ones, checkered long sleeve shirts suit you too well, so country; you listen to different music, and you know a lot of lyrics, you like sweet stuff too; your bathroom is so clean and organized - speaks a lot about you; you like your mom's gift - and you use it a lot (air filter), puts you to sleep (and works for me too! lol); you have a fushia pink lava lamp and kept it for yearssss, haha; you grew up eating hotdogs and burgers (wish I had the chance to make burgers for you); you like wild, dangerous sports; you paint, you're an artist; you try to gain weight, you go to the gym too; you've gotten a lot better in darts, never had the chance to beat your a**; you picked thousands of eggs in the morning at your father's chicken house (lol); money isn't a big deal for you, you're a simple nice guy; you're a good brother, a good son...

I'm glad to have had the opportunity to know more of you, other than the quiet techy guy in the office. :)

I know we said we'd just be friends, and I know we were just friends. But some things went wrong, and we stopped talking to each other.

I don't want to know what happened, nor do I want to know why things happened. I just know, it had to happen, maybe. Before things got worse. Got more. I don't know.

I'll keep the memories I have about you, and this photo right here, is so you...a guy who likes to sleep a lot. Who won't get up from bed until like 30mins before 9am for work. A guy who'd look this way, looking so lovely, sleeping beside me, while I would be silently be moving when I'm awaken by sunlight in the morning.

Honestly, you're the loveliest sight I've ever seen in the morning. Ever.

I specifically love your suthern accent, the 'ya know what im sayin'...haha..the 'twangs'... it sounds sexy... :)

Too short time to say, but I liked the Tyler Hurley I've met, and been spending time with for the past few months...

I'd tell you something I didn't like - you didn't want to take a picture with me last Supercross event - did that just scare you a lot? That a photo with me, would mean keeping memories of us? That doing it, would crossthe barrier that you've set to becoming more than friends? That's just stupid, its just a picture.Did you despise the thought of being with me that much? I hated you that time, you just ruined my night you know. :-/

It's gonna be just less than a year, and I'd leave the country.
I know as I'd leave, a portion of my heart will remain in North Carolina...

Take care of yourself Tyl, be the good man that you are now, and be better.

Find love, and have fun.

Till then. See yah.

Nice Phrase =)

“Then, one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life… you give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore.”

No One's Perfect

Certainly, no one can ever be perfect to someone else's eyes. But I know there's someone up there, who sees the real me, who doesn't look for the perfect me, as I'm already perfect enough for Him. Whatever I lack, that makes up the real me. And He doesn't judge me.

Words been said.. and they hurt.

I've been crying on this for awhile... a week.
I really can't tell anymore why..and how... as I just don't want to remember it...

But I now acknowledge, that, even though you have your family... at some point you are still strangers to one another. What more if you weren't together for 17years?

Words been said. And they hurt. Deeply.

I was on my way home driving from Holly Springs, and I started crying while on the highway - that's not safe. Driving in the highway, disoriented, is a no-no.
I'm away from friends, not a single person I can actually talk to about this for the past week, that I had to just keep it inside.
That crying is my only way out. :(

I hate being depressed. Well except for some major relationship breakups or whatever.

But family-wise, it never occurred to me.

To give just a little idea, suddenly, I became the bad child.
I became someone without respect to parents.
That sucks.

One of my closest friends told me...
"just move on from it Cloud, it will do you no good to dwell on it, you know, we know, you're not even close to being a bad child"...

My father texted me... saying my mother is now okay, and that they didn't mean it saying those.. and saying we must forgive and forget, both ways. I said, yeah, I'm fine about it. It's just that words been said and they really hurt. Just give me a little space for now, I just need to heal.

I know I should keep that space short.
I should be fine sooner.

My parents (grandparents) are old.
I should not give them any burden like this.
And I love them.

Hope it'll be over soon.

*Yeah, I'm pertaining to my Nanang and Tatang in Florida, which are my biological grandparents... But I've grown up acknowledging them as my parents. :)

Sunday Plans!

I'll be off for Mass @ 9:30am... then pick up some things at Food Lion supermarket..
Be home by 11... start cooking pancit for lunch (pinoy noodles)... then watch Supercross at CBSSports - online at 12noon!

Yeah - I miss the days when I could actually see motocross races live back in Ilocos and even Abra. I know some of my highschool mates are now crazy about it, and are doing races nowadays at my home province. Be safe guys!

Breakfast in a moment - then time to prep for church!

Happy Sunday!

5th Year....

It's my 5th year with Accenture today...

Time for some self check:

Any plans to resign soon? - None.
Ever been promoted for the past 5years? - Twice.
Onshore? - Yes
Performance Rating? - Still Good. :P
Satisfied with Income? - Yes

Alright... another 5 years. LOL

...the sad heart...

it's hard to pretend that you do not care...when in fact you mostly do. :(