anu nang balita sa kin...?

It's been a long time since I last posted in this blog...bakit nga kaya? Dati, halos araw araw... ngpopost ako..hehe. :)
Noticed the pattern? If I'm at the state of broken hearted...dami ko napopost..hahaha...

I tend to turn this blog into a diary... nagiging bestfriend ko...

Lahat ng sama ng loob ko... lahat ng insights ko, dito ko sinasabi.. :)

Anu nga bang bago sa kin..

Hmmm...

Past track tayo...

June 14-15 - La Union - Vigan trip with Mona, RA and Sho.. We went to Mona's relatives in La Union, had some swimming at the beach... played a litttle basketball at the camp...then toured around Vigan.. :)

June - Early August - WABL Season. My team Balleras reaching the semis, and of course, Gold Diggers, winning the league. Congrats!

August 30-31 - GD Laguna Outing: Championship celebration. The resort was sponsored by Lois, drinks by Coach Dale, the rest were contributed by everybody. I had a breakdown during the outing... why? Secret, I was just so down... was sooo hurt... that I turned to drinking a lot of alcohol.. smoking.. I just needed an outlet. After the outing, I felt a little better, being able to pour things out... :)

September - Things were a little smoother for me...any event? uhmmmm...

September 06 - JPMC Teambuilding held at Viktoria Court, Pasig. First time in a motel! haha.. :)

October - 11 - Level1 and Level2 Teams 2nd yr Anniversary held at A-Venue Hotel... grabe, lasing ako! At first time kong magtanggera, hehe... :)

October 16-19 - Bora Trip with Sho... my most awaited trip..haha. Really a dream come true for me... Thanks for Sho for coming as well.. at DRAWING ang dapat eh original kasama ko sa Bora.. pero ayos lang.. was real fun, and really memorable.. :) At least, may kasama akong kaibigan dun..haha. A total adventure.. great experience! First time sa Bora, First time sumakay ng airplane, First time ma-Stranded sa airport at magchance passenger sa ibang airline...Salamat Seair,hehe..:)

JPMC Zambales Trip

The project had it's second summer outing @ Canoe Beach Resort.. last May 31- June 01. It was really great... though Bataan White Coral Beach Resort is incomparable to it's beauty and amenities... the surrounding islands compensated it all... as well as the great sunset.

Here are some pics for your viewing... :)

...right now...

...this is cloudz' life...

1. Woke up great!
2. Had a great weekend.
3. I'm lying on my bed..nakadapa.. :)
4. My laptop's on infront of me.
5. Chatting with friends @ ym. Friendster/Blog/eMail are all open.
6. Watching Grey's season 2.
7. My self-prepared longganisa-hotdog-egg-rice breakfast is currently waiting for me to eat it!!! :)
8. No work till 8pm .
9. Thinking if should I go out any time today...
10. Love this!

<-Magleo Siblings->

You guys might be wondering, Magleo is a last name, I was supposed to have had... But I'm not saying I don't want where I am right now.. and especially who I am...I'm so happy and thankful with my life right now, the family I've been with... I'm sooo proud of them and love them so much..

But I'm just so glad... that I've still got other family out there...

Ooooppss, won't give you much details..hehehe...

It's my second time seeing them, first time was, 8yrs ago??? And they're big now... and I sooo love being their Ate... I'm looking forward to spending more time with them....




... with Arjhee (17) and RR (12)...



...mga pogi kong kapatid, mana sa ate, hehe.. :)



...Magleo Siblings,,reunited..



...Arjhee.. sisters alike.. :)



...our bunso.. RR.. mwahhhh!!!

namiss ko mgBLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

grabe, ang tagal na ng last post ko...uhm, last pics uploaded, bataan trip??? whoaaa...
I've been to Pangasinan, to Baguio, to Zambales, to La Union and Vigan ...yet, Bataan pa lng ung huli, hahaha...

busy busyhan???? senxa naman, dayshift kasi ako, at tsaka midshift... ayan tuloy...di ako nkakapagnet masyado, hihihi...

tsaka WABL time na kasi, my practices... tas laging pagod, bagsak pagkauwi, hehe.. :D

now i'm back!!! ;)

Bataan Trip - Ariba Summer Outing '08

Just this afternoon, we arrived from our summer outing at White Corals Beach Resort -Morong, Bataan. It was quite a long trip, almost 6 hrs on the road, and a very late lunch, but heck - we had so much fun during the outing!!!

For starters, here are the photos taken from the outing... that's divided in 4 parts:

1. Departure

2. Day 1 - Arrival/Team Games/Pictorial

3. Day 2 - Swimming/Pictorial

4. Cloudz' & Ryan's Pictorial @ White Corals, Bataan

Ang itim ko na , hahaha... though dati nmn na akong morena, nangitim lng lalo, hehe.. :D

Hay, sarap ng summer.... i want mooooorrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeee.. :)

Di bale, Zambales trip is next for the JPMC outing on May 31- June 1... hehehe.. :P

bru!!! darating ka na, missed you much!!! ;p

...hmm? si kAykAy? that's how she likes her name spelled.. hehe. bitch yan eh, tulad ko, pero worse yan..haha... :P
...almost one yr na yang onshore sa NJ, before she left, di pa kami close... we were just 'feeling' close. but heck, distance wasn't a hindrance to build a great friendship... love na love ko tong malditang to, hehe...
...ayan, uuwi ka na, haba ng to-do list natin... to count, metrowalk gimik, EK, adopt-a-cloud sa inyo, spa, satc, when love begins movie, bora, anvaya, ilocos-abra tour, xocolat, sbux, jabee treats, calaruega/tagaytay trip, etc etc etc.....
...ngcocountdown na kami sa pagdating mo bru, what, 10 days???? hehehe.. umuwi ka na kAykAy...
...yngatz ka dyan... ung T2-baby ko, iuwi mo ha.. ahahaha... :D

preparing for summer??? hehe...

hmmm..new boyfwend???o kaagaw???

...haha more of kaagaw nga eh, hehehe.. tama ba? karibal ko pla tong taong to??? agawan p ko sa prinsepe ko? ahahaha.. astig magtripz noh, kunyare kami na ni Ercia... naconvert ko sya, pra bumalik sa reality.. hehe.. :P


...here's another pic.. kaming lahat, si nanah-ryan, si roslyn-joy, at ercia-cloudz... we were in cavite that time... family outing nina joy, hehe... nice noh, 3-couples... ahaha.. :D be sharing more pics next time, antok n ko.. :P

bleeding in love..

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

...fairy tales...

Did you ever believe in fairy tales... the existence of a true royal palace.. the princes and princesses.. the knights in shining armor.. true love?

Believing in fairy tales... is like believing in magic... in possibilities...

That a frog turns into prince...

That behind the beast, is a perfect knight...

That sleeping beauty wakes up 'coz of the true love's kiss...

That cinderella, a poor, simple girl... would be loved by the prince...

Perhaps, these are all true.. these can all happen.

But they doesn't happen just merely being offered infront of you, free for your grabbing...

You've got to do your part, recognize opportunities... take chances.

If it's all you've got, to make your dream come true, then do it. It won't matter how high and mighty it would be...

Enough of the uncertainties.. of the insecurities... enough of pessimisms...

This chance, comes only once... well perhaps, a second once has come along.

And this time, make sure you do it better... Make sure you show it... Whatever it takes, just prove it... that, it can be true... it can be possible.

Don't let it to just pass... Keep it... Fight for it...

while I'm sick...

Just about an hour ago, while I was there lying in my bed.. waiting for my fever to cool down.. I had a little discussion with my mind.. which goes..

This year.. 2008..
I would've moved out from our place.. SOON!
I wanna play... basketball!
I wanna go to... Bora!
I wanna buy a...cybershot T2 cam, green one!
I wanna eat at.. Le Souffle, The Fort... or Queens @ Jupiter... :)
I wanna maintain the weight of... 118 lbs...
I wanna do better at work..
Plans on having a boyfriend? ...bakit, may nanliligaw ba???
Fall in love?.. I guess..
Get married?.. big NO!

Next year..2009
I wanna go out of the country... first thing on yr 2009! =) Anywhere, as long as OUT!
I wanna visit the prison, hahaha.
I wanna learn.. a new sport..
I wanna undergo the .. Ariba Bootcamp Training.. hehe!
Sana maging Shift Lead na, hahaha..
Planning for my parents' Golden Wedding Anniversary.. (gastos! hehe)
Spend Christmas.... with someone special. (whoever!)
...more more more...

On the year..2010.
Turning 25 that year.. tanda na, haha.. =)
Dreaming for a car, probably.. or a condo? hahaha . Asa!
Marriage plans? Uhm, No Idea..
Single pa? Probably. hahaha.

Hahaha, whatever is listed above... who knows what will happen?
Just enjoy dear, don't rush into things... let them come in time, come in the right time.. =)

my littel angels.. with tita-ninang.. =)

I don't know if I'm angry...
Unsure if it's bitterness...
Or a little mad...
At least I know I'm hurting...

I thought you are who you are...
I thought you'll be there as you told me so.

I hoped, I wished...
That it will be you, who'll just be there.

But you left me out,
Left me behind...
You choose to stay away,
Preferred to leave my way.

Why did it turn out this way,
Why did it turn out,
To be you,
Against I.

I'm not good with words.
Nor with poems.
But I hope this simple message would...
Let you know how I feel.

I'm sorry I might've hurt you.
It's just me trying to stand on my own.

Just a smile. Perhaps just one more smile.

Be enough to keep me believe,

That after all this,

We are still who we were...

Bestfriends.

Dear Ai Lin

Dear Ai Lin,

You turned out to be a stranger, perhaps, as well as I to you. I'm sorry, I didn't intend nor wanted so. I just don't know, if I still have you. You were the person, I thought who'll be just right there. Not always - but at least, at most times. I don't blame you, I know it was my fault. I started it.

I moved away, as it was hard for me. I thought you'll understand, I thought you'll be the first one to understand. I wasn't being childish. I was just looking for a defense from my side. As I can depend on no one but myself. And it was the only possible way I know, I can, and I did.

I miss you, I don't know if you miss too. Or if you still recognize me. Been hurting much, not anymore from the relationship I've been, but for losing the bestfriend I thought I had.

I can be quite okay now, as I have other people around me. People who had been making me happy, making me feel that I'm not on my own.. And that been so busy, that I'd likely withdraw from loneliness.

But at times, I feel so empty, so alone... All I hear was silence... As all I wanted to hear was you. I tend to look for you on the crowd, I always wish that you're around...

I've had a lot of questions on my mind - all what is.. why is...as well as what if's... I don't know if I can find answers, I also don't know, if I want them... =(

Just for now, I hope you're okay. Be always okay, as that's what I've always wanted you to be. And be happy. I'll just be here, perhaps you can't feel me, I can't you feel you too. I'm so afraid, I might get used to, and you as well. But I know, in my heart, you'll just be in there.

I know. I'm sure.

Love,
Ai Quan

Message.. for Ai Lin..

You used to be my friend, actually my bestfriend...
You might not know, everytime I see you around,
I long to say 'hi', to give you a kiss, a hug...

I miss my sister, I miss the person,
I've trusted everything with...

I don't know how things happened,
I don't know how it ended...
But in my heart, it hasn't...
As my heart always whispers your name,
when you're behind me, infront....
or when you're afar...

I gave you reasons, why I can't get near,
I had to kept distant,
Coz' I can't get near yet..
As you're with ---..
It's the only way I know,
To help me move on,
To help me get over pain..
To help me forget..
As I can't depend to anyone,
But only to myself.
I thought it's my own way.
And I know it worked.

But you never gave me any reason,
Why can't you get close as well...
You choose,
To stay away, if I stay away..

Perhaps, I hoped too much..
That if I can't come near...
You will...

You speak, only when I speak...
You reply, only when I send you one.

Been tired reaching out,
Been tired trying much...
To say 'hello'...
Only to get a cold 'hi'...
Or a simple nod...

I miss our coffee times,
our shopping moments,
our hopefully-be-repeated-martini-night...
I miss sleeping, cuddling beside you in the bed..
I miss you waking me up, hugging me..
As I do the same on you..

I miss us buying stuffs alike,
I miss showing you approval or dislike 'signs' to anything I see around...
I miss our secret 'complains' or 'panlalaits' around...
I miss our silly bets...
I miss our simple chat..
I miss simply saying goodmorning...
I miss calling you my 'kapatid...

I don't know how to get near you anymore...
I'm scared, to be neglected..

I wish for the moment to come,
That we can still talk...
That we can smile...
And I specially hope,
That when the time comes,
I'd be marching on the aisle,
With you ahead of me...
As my maid of honor,
Or otherwise.

How are you Ai Lin...

I hope you're fine.

I hope, you're better.

I hope we can talk.

.....

No one can ever take your place...

You are, and will always be my forever bestfriend.

Even if you forget me, I won't.

You might find a new bestfriend.

I might have new special friends.

But you're always be different.

As you're my bestfriend.

.....

I miss you.

I love you.

Take Care.

3hrs of sleep = bangag

I slept around 12noon today, woke up around 3??? The hell... hehe.. basta gising na ko at di na makatulog pa, goodluck naman sa kin mamaya sa work di ba???

Got a learning session to attend to tonight by 8pm, plus a Focus Group Discussion with the HR after that.. I just hope, stuffs would sink in my mind in this state huh?

Anyhoo, just came from a long break from our province, Abra, as my parents arrived from Fla. Had so much fun being with my parents again after two years... and being a "yaya con ninang con tita" to my cute pamangkins - Mathel and Kant (pix to come on the next posts).

Ane news? Well my cuz' boyfriend (Mathel's dad) recently passed the board for Medicine. He's now a licensed Neurologist, hopefully, what comes next is wedding bells for him and Yeng. And sana, bridesmaid haha.. (naadik) at ninang pa rin syempz ni Mathel,, =)

What else - the big question of my relatives is "When will I get MARRIED?".. Almost all of them asked me same question over and over; as my cousins has started settling down, raising their kids.

And the answer is - NOT YET. Matagal pa noh, hahaha... I have yet to let my "prince" know that I exist.. lol..

Any pasalubong? Hmmm..as requested, Guess and Pleasures parfum...plus one more coming from my sis that has just arrived from Saudi. Chocolates? Typical.. and one thing I liked most is the huggable stuffed toy, in the form of a dog... and I named her as N****... (ops, the name's confidential, hehe)

Wala akong masyadong pasalubong, di kasi nila alam what I like, tsktsk.. typical from parents who have been away from their child for what, 13yrs now? hehe.. kaya sabi ko, CASH is good.. hihi.. =)

Uhm, enough posts for now... bangag pa ko..

Ops ---something really made me smile last night, but it's a secret! (wink wink)

I.. Me..and Myself @ Pangasinan

Pangasinan Trip: Feb 16-17, 2008

..is there really a hundred of them..? or more..?

..which do you think is the best shot..for a beautiful sunset like this..?