Message.. for Ai Lin..

You used to be my friend, actually my bestfriend...
You might not know, everytime I see you around,
I long to say 'hi', to give you a kiss, a hug...

I miss my sister, I miss the person,
I've trusted everything with...

I don't know how things happened,
I don't know how it ended...
But in my heart, it hasn't...
As my heart always whispers your name,
when you're behind me, infront....
or when you're afar...

I gave you reasons, why I can't get near,
I had to kept distant,
Coz' I can't get near yet..
As you're with ---..
It's the only way I know,
To help me move on,
To help me get over pain..
To help me forget..
As I can't depend to anyone,
But only to myself.
I thought it's my own way.
And I know it worked.

But you never gave me any reason,
Why can't you get close as well...
You choose,
To stay away, if I stay away..

Perhaps, I hoped too much..
That if I can't come near...
You will...

You speak, only when I speak...
You reply, only when I send you one.

Been tired reaching out,
Been tired trying much...
To say 'hello'...
Only to get a cold 'hi'...
Or a simple nod...

I miss our coffee times,
our shopping moments,
our hopefully-be-repeated-martini-night...
I miss sleeping, cuddling beside you in the bed..
I miss you waking me up, hugging me..
As I do the same on you..

I miss us buying stuffs alike,
I miss showing you approval or dislike 'signs' to anything I see around...
I miss our secret 'complains' or 'panlalaits' around...
I miss our silly bets...
I miss our simple chat..
I miss simply saying goodmorning...
I miss calling you my 'kapatid...

I don't know how to get near you anymore...
I'm scared, to be neglected..

I wish for the moment to come,
That we can still talk...
That we can smile...
And I specially hope,
That when the time comes,
I'd be marching on the aisle,
With you ahead of me...
As my maid of honor,
Or otherwise.

How are you Ai Lin...

I hope you're fine.

I hope, you're better.

I hope we can talk.

.....

No one can ever take your place...

You are, and will always be my forever bestfriend.

Even if you forget me, I won't.

You might find a new bestfriend.

I might have new special friends.

But you're always be different.

As you're my bestfriend.

.....

I miss you.

I love you.

Take Care.

3hrs of sleep = bangag

I slept around 12noon today, woke up around 3??? The hell... hehe.. basta gising na ko at di na makatulog pa, goodluck naman sa kin mamaya sa work di ba???

Got a learning session to attend to tonight by 8pm, plus a Focus Group Discussion with the HR after that.. I just hope, stuffs would sink in my mind in this state huh?

Anyhoo, just came from a long break from our province, Abra, as my parents arrived from Fla. Had so much fun being with my parents again after two years... and being a "yaya con ninang con tita" to my cute pamangkins - Mathel and Kant (pix to come on the next posts).

Ane news? Well my cuz' boyfriend (Mathel's dad) recently passed the board for Medicine. He's now a licensed Neurologist, hopefully, what comes next is wedding bells for him and Yeng. And sana, bridesmaid haha.. (naadik) at ninang pa rin syempz ni Mathel,, =)

What else - the big question of my relatives is "When will I get MARRIED?".. Almost all of them asked me same question over and over; as my cousins has started settling down, raising their kids.

And the answer is - NOT YET. Matagal pa noh, hahaha... I have yet to let my "prince" know that I exist.. lol..

Any pasalubong? Hmmm..as requested, Guess and Pleasures parfum...plus one more coming from my sis that has just arrived from Saudi. Chocolates? Typical.. and one thing I liked most is the huggable stuffed toy, in the form of a dog... and I named her as N****... (ops, the name's confidential, hehe)

Wala akong masyadong pasalubong, di kasi nila alam what I like, tsktsk.. typical from parents who have been away from their child for what, 13yrs now? hehe.. kaya sabi ko, CASH is good.. hihi.. =)

Uhm, enough posts for now... bangag pa ko..

Ops ---something really made me smile last night, but it's a secret! (wink wink)

I.. Me..and Myself @ Pangasinan

Pangasinan Trip: Feb 16-17, 2008

..is there really a hundred of them..? or more..?

..which do you think is the best shot..for a beautiful sunset like this..?

Ariba Christmas Party '07